My Mind, My Life and My Heart

2010-01-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

2009-10-15T09:05:00.001+08:00

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2009-10-06T11:08:00.002+08:00

(سُبۡحَـٰنَكَ لَا عِلۡمَ لَنَآ إِلَّا مَا عَلَّمۡتَنَآ‌ۖ إِنَّكَ أَنتَ ٱلۡعَلِيمُ ٱلۡحَكِيمُ (٣٢
Maha Suci Engkau! Tiada ilmu bagi kami…Melainkan apa yang Engkau ajari kami, Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Tahu, Maha Bijaksana
-Al-Baqarah: 32

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau adalah tujuan hidupku dan KeredhaanMu menjadi harapanku..

For the past few days, a have been receiving a lot of bad news as well as wild allegation that is being thrown towards me. Well, let me make it clear. It is sad that some of them graduated but a simple word also they don’t understand. “Ustaz” or “Ustazah” is a words used for those who are under the category as “teachers”. “Teachers” are equal to “Asatizah” & “Pendidik”. “Ustaz” is for a male teacher in the Arabic language. While in Malay it is “Cikgu”. So? What is the big deal when people call us “Ustaz”?? It is just an address form. Not something high and mighty.

Buah Cempedak di luar pagar,
Buah Berangan di dalam kuali.
Kata sudah banyak belajar,
Takkan itu pun tak faham lagi.

Another thing is a bout “pengiktirafan” or qualification. Well, if you are trying to talk about hukum etc, so let us debate about it. Is there any specific nas or dalil from Al-Quran or Al-Hadis that indicated that “you must graduate and must be iktiraf (by any organisation or bodies) before you could teach and preach??”

If there is, please show and tell me. But so far, No.

But if you are trying to say about “Certificate”, I would like to ask you a question first. All this ilmu come from Allah s.w.t which was send to Jibrail a.s. then it was passed down to Rasulullah s.a.w. Is there any specific certificate that Rasulullah received from Jibrail a.s? Where is the certificate? Is there such thing as that?

Let’s us stop condemning others and find failed about others. We are just a normal human being. Whether you are a “Ustaz” or not we are still the same in the eyes of Allah s.w.t. Even you graduated from Al-Azhar, Makkah, Madinah etc, but when it comes to Ilmu, you have to be tawaduk. Our knowledge compared to Allah s.w.t is just like the bubbles in the ocean. So please..

Jika kita menghalang orang membuat kebaikan, apatah lagi berdakwah ke jalan Allah s.w.t, layakkah kita bergelar sebagai seorang Muslim? Seorang Muslim seharusnya menyukai akan apa yang dilakukan oleh saudara Muslimnya…

Mengapa harus mencari keredhaan dan pengiktirafan Manusia tetapi bukan keredhaan dan pengiktirafan dari Allah s.w.t.?

(وَمَنۡ أَصۡدَقُ مِنَ ٱللَّهِ حَدِيثً۬ا (٨٧
Adakah sesiapa yang lebih benar perkataannya dari Allah?
An-Nisa’:87

Sepertimana Rasulullah s.a.w telah bersabda yang bermaksud:
“Sesungguhnya Allah tiada melihat kepada rupa kamu dan amalan kamu, tetapi Dia melihat kepada hati dan niat kamu..”

Ya Allah, aku mohon keampunanMu. Ampunkanlah dosa kedua ibubapaku. Dosa guru-guruku, dosa para-para pelajarku dan semua dosa Muslimin & Muslimat yang masih hidup mahupun yang telah kembali kepadaMu.

Ya Allah, tiada daya kekuatan melainkan Engkau yang menolongku. Tiada apa yang aku miliki kerana apa yang ada adalah milikMu Ya Allah.

Ya Allah, sesungguhny kehidupanku hanya untuk Engkau dan keredhaanMu menjadi harapanku. Janganlah Engkau hampakan harapan kami ini Ya Allah. Tunjukilah kami ke jalan yang Engkau redhai agar kami dapat menyebarkan agamaMu yang Suci Ya Allah..

Pimpinlah kami ke jalan yang lurus..Sesungguhnya, Engkau lah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang. Amin Ya Robbal ‘Alamin

Its hard to forgive, but is has to be done..

2009-10-04T10:10:00.003+08:00

It is hard to forgive. But it has to be done. Why should we spend the rest of our life thinking about it, and why not move on...

Salam… Well, if I wish you Salam Aidilfitri it is rather late right? Anyway, just want say that I would like to seek forgiveness to all for my past mistake that I have done and I hope you will be able to forgive my mistake as we as a normal human being never failed to commit the mistake.

Lately, a few things happen that really saddened me. Well, I just don’t know why. I have been having the mixed feeling that is really irritating me of course. It is really bitter and painful. But, this is life. Upon answering to my PA question that day when we had a good chat, “Will you forgive him?’ and ‘do you keep any grudges against him?”

My answer is, it’s really hard to forgive, but it has to be done. Why should I spend the rest of my life thinking about it, and why not move on. I meant there is still a lot for me to learn, and improve as time come by. We are all a normal human being, the servant of Allah s.w.t. We are not perfect. We are not good or noble. We are nothing in His eyes. Therefore, I believe that we should forgive, but I will never forget.

What is there to keep grudges against anyone? What will I gain? I will never ever keep any grudges against anyone even it is bitter and painful.

Akar nibung meresap,
Akar mati dalam perahu.
Terbakar kampong kelihatan asap,
Terbakar hati, siapa yang tahu.

To Whom It May Concern, I know that it is hard to overcome what have happen before. But, why? Why should we be crying and hoping when the answer is a clear signal. At times, it is really painful and bitter than bitter gout. Yes, we don’t want that to happen. Never have we wanted it to happen. But, it did. It’s all in His Hands, The Almighty Allah s.w.t. So, we have to learn, and move on. Moving on is not easy, but as we do, we are learning. We learn from the past, and never to repeat it again. Never fail to seek His guidance during your daily prayers, only Him can give us the strength..

“Tiada daya kekuatanku, melainkan dengan pertolonganMu Ya Allah..”

2009-08-28T21:07:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum Wr. Br.

Salam Ramadan to all fellow Muslimin & Muslimat out there…I knw im late.

Anw, hmmm…it has been a while since I last blog yeah. Alhamdulillah! Kasih Ramadan project this year went extremely well. I would also like to take this opportunity to thanks all staff, official, volunteers and Intifada Riders for your tremendous support and contribution to the success of this project.

Semoga Allah s.w.t membalas jasa baik anda sekalian dengan ganjaran syurgaNya, InsyaAllah. Amin

Well, this year Ramadan is better than last year. What can I say, we must always look at the perspective that “Today is Better than Yesterday”..yeah..haha. Im glad that the volunteers from Madrasah Aljunied under the leadership of Maria came to me and say this “Ust, we would like to form the pemudi for MUHD ZUHAILI Services…” – during the Kasih Ramadan packing day on the 16 Aug.

Too me, I always welcome those who are keen to do something for the benefits of others. So, we have now the Nurul Iman group (Pemudi Azfar) which consist of all the Muslimah volunteers from Madrasah Aljunied. Well, it is open to all actually. Yeah..InsyaAllah.

Well, there are a few things happening now. I don’t what to say. Hmm…anw, there is smthing that at least make up my day now. Yeah..hehe

Ever since you came to my life, things started to change.
Ever since you came to my life, you have brought back the joy and laughter in me.
Ever since you came to my life, you have given me the strength to breathe again.

But, am I ready for it? Am I good for you? Do I deserve you? Well, let Allah decide for that…

I just read an email that really disappoints me. Like I used to say before, it’s really hard. But no matter what, we have to carry on the struggle.
Alhamdulillah, I have spoken to my key personal and PA, they said “No matter what, kita tidak akan mengkhianati perjuangan yang telah kita bina bersama selama ini. Kita akan terus berjuang walaupun halangan dan rintangan itu kuat..”

Thank you, you words and oath have made me feel that the strength we have now is really excellent. But, we should never be to complacent, kita harus terus berdoa, mohon petunjuk Allah s.w.t. dan teruskan berjuang demi agaman dan bangsa. Kita akan lawan habis-habisan dan lawan sampai menang!!

Ok then, salam Ramadan to all..

2009-08-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

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2009-07-21T13:04:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum Wr. Br.

Im back!! Alhamdulillah, after all the problem in the hospital etc, im finally home again with the family and have started all my daily routines nornally. :)

Where shall i start? hmm... ok, lets begin with the operation 1st, it was a total huge problem then. I was supposed to be operated on 6 July at ard 10am to 12noon. Therefore, i start fasting from the 12am (the night before) and went to the hospital at ard 7am in the morning as my admission time was 8am. After changing and lying down the bed, the nurse came for interview etc. She told me that im not that well as im having a slight cough and runnning nose. Therefore, i was later being informed that the operation was cancel and i was being discharge??? Understand that? I was on the bed was like only ard 2hrs and was then later being inform to go home. Hah:)

They postponed it to 13 July, a week later. However, i was admitted the day before which was 12 July. Before that on the very day, had a breakfast session with close family members as well as the 2 PAs. Had a good time. Then headed to the hospital at ard 12.30pm. However, on this day, i had a spontaneous fever causing me to shiver badly. It occurs at ard 3pm till the next day which was the operation day. That night, i was brought for X-rays. By then, my temperature was like ard 38.6...(nasib baik bukan H1N1).

It was a miracle when the specialist came at ard 11.30pm telling me that my lungs have expanded almost 100%. Alhamdulillah. At first, its collapsed to 30%, and now...Alhamdulilla. Segala Puji Hanya Bagi Allah. I was send home the next day. My fever is getting worst till my highest reading was 39.6dgr!!! On Monday after....:) But, im fined now:) :)

Ok, the planing for Kasih Ramadan (KR) is going very well. The floor plan is out for the day. And this year will be different frm the last year. Well done to the organizing committee (Pemuda Azfar).

One of the floor plan.

Well, last Friday was good day especially after the Friday prayers where i catch up with an old pal, Agnes Seng. We met up at J8 for lunch.(Well, its a rather late lunch as we meet at 3.30pm). I arrived there at ard 2pm immediately after Friday Prayers. Had a cup of tea at the Food Junctions and met up with a few best people from Deyi Sec. Among them was Zuhaily..:) had a good time catching up and i managed to give some advise on the leadership agenda in Deyi. Well, the politics is even worst than my time..:) We talk and talk till Agnes ring the phone..haha

We headed to PH for meal and we talk till the entire restuarant was empty. We spend at ard 2hrs there. Then we headed to Coffeebean for a cup of Hot Chocolate and we sat there for an hour. We share all our sweet and sour journey of life together. Eventough she is not a Muslim, but she respected Islam well. We should.

Walaupun mereka ini kafir, namun kita harus menghormati mereka sepertimana yang telah diajarkan oleh Rasulullah s.a.w. Sesungguhnya Islam adalah agama yang mengajarkan kedamaian.

Well, the next upcoming event will be the 1 Aug for Majlis Khatamal Quran. All are invited yeah..

2009-07-10T11:38:00.000+08:00

2009-06-29T20:30:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

Just arrived home from the Heart Centre for my medical appointment. I have expected it..and yes it is true. I have to undergo another surgery next Wed. My lungs is getting weaker causing it to collapse and react slowly.

Coughing seems quite bad for me. It do hurts my backbone at time. Well, what can i said? Its all in His Hand....

I received a call frm "someone" asking me about my qualitfication etc...some of you might knw what its all about. It is really demoralising, making me feel down on earth etc...but i knw i can. So as you my boys (PAZFAR). Always remember, it will never an easy task especially to carry out the duty of Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. But, you have to stand for the right no matter what.

Remember every single thing that i have taught you. The 5 element to lead a happy life.

Love Allah as he is your Creator, Love Prophet Muhammad .s.a.w as you are His follower, Love your parents as without them you will not be in this earth and lastly, Love yourself. InsyaAllah you will then find the true happiness in life.

I could only hear "be patient and be strong..." is what been playing in my ears...and yes, InsyaAllah i will.....

2009-06-11T23:28:00.017+08:00

Assalamualaikum...Alhamdulillahi Robbil 'Alamin. I safely arrived frm Surabaya after 4d/3n visit there which begins frm last Monday till ytd(Thursday, 11 Jun)

I visited Pasentran Darul Hikmah (Mojokerto) as well as the resident of Ust Masruhan Kiyai Choteb Al-Hafiz.
Dinner at his place on the first day. Depart frm Singapore Airport at 13.05pm. And yeah, journey frm Juanda (Surabaya Airport) to his place as well as the pasentran was abt 2hrs journey...

Together with Ust Masruhan's children. Left: Ad-din & Awik (heheh, cant remember their name)
Mushollah at the new Pasentran at TambakSuruh (its a 20mins journey frm the old Pasentran area)

The old pasentran which is still functioning with all the daily activities. Located at Jalan Kiyai Haji Ismail Ibrahim, Mojokerto, Surabaya.

Dialog session with the Head of Department.

Visited the resident of late Kiyai Badruddin (father-in-law to Ust Masruhan)

Introduction by the wife of late Kiyai Hj Badruddin whose his late father was Kiyai Hj Ismail Ibrahim. (Pengasas Pasentran)

Some view frm the plantation there..Subhanallah.

Traditional Bakso (Meatball noodle soup) With Pak ust Hanafi (Brother-in-law to Ust Masruhan) - teaches Fiqh

Santri-santri (Student in Java)

The goat that being slaughtered fro our farewell feast (3rd day)

Went to Jombang (another district in Surabaya where the journey frm the pasentran to Jombang was like 1 and half hour journey). When there to visit my cousin's in-laws. And we make a new friend, Ricky. (the nephew of my cousin)

Was brought to famous "Soto Dooq" to taste the local Soto. Yumyum.

The satay for the feast

Qiyam/Munajat before departing home at Pak Masruhan family surau. Alhamdulillah, before we headed to Juanda (Airport) as our flight was at 4pm (Local Singapore time/ theirs is an hour late), we managed to go to Ampel to visit the Tomb of Sunan Ampel (1 of the Wali Songo - AlFatehah ) to offer some prayers. We shop a bit there as Ampel is known as their "Arab St'..but true. Its the same as in Makkah, i mean the stuff there as well as the street life.

Thankyou to all for your wishes...InsyaAllah my dream will come true with your prayers and support.

Allahu Akbar!! Allahu Akbar!! Allahu Akbar!!

2009-06-02T06:40:00.006+08:00

Dear My Father, My Leader and My Mentor,

Today is your special day. Therefore, I would like to take this opportunity to tell you a few things. There is nothing in this world that can pay your great sacrifice, your kindness, your endless love towards me and mum. Nothing could we ever able to repay you dad. Without your blessing, without your prayers day and night, i would not be able to be someone now. I would not be able to achieve what i have achieved now without your sacrifice and prayers. Therfore, i could only pray to Allah s.w.t as He is the ONLY ONE could repay back you deed to me and mum.

"Ya Allah, Engkau ampunkanlah dosa kedua ibubapaku yang telah banyak berkorban untukku. Engkau kurniakanlah bapaku Rahmat & Kasih SayangMu. Engkau kurniakanlah dia rezeki yang luas dan Engkau mudahkan lah segala urusanNya di dunia & di akhirat nanti. Engkau Masukkan lah ibubapaku ke dalam SyurgaMu Ya Allah. Wahai Tuhanku, Engkau ringankan lah segala beban bapaku serta berikanlah dia kekuatan untuk menghadapi segala cabaran didunia ini. Bantulah dia Ya Allah, bantulah Ya Allah. Hanya Engkau lah yang dapat membalas jasa serta pengorbanan bapaku ini...Amin Ya Robbal 'Alamin."

Happy Birthday Dad.. Happy Birthday to my Aunt as well as my dearest cousin, Siti Raudhah Samsudin

2009-05-25T19:36:00.006+08:00

Assalamualaikum Wr. Br.

Alhamdulillah, last Sat (23 May), Ust Masruhan Kiyai Choteb AlHafiz (Guruku) came to my residence for silaturrahim as well as ceramah during my class in Hougang after Isyak.

He came at around 6pm. He mnanaged to meet up with a few leaders of Pemuda Azfar such as Ibrahim & Murtadza to give a piece of advice on the leadership. Alhamdulillah, pak kiyai managed to imam our Maghrib as well as Isyak before proceeding to Hougang for ceramah during my weekly class.

" Saya menyeru kepada semua para pelajar dan anak murid dibawa pimpinan Ust Muhd Zuhaili agar teruskan usaha dan jangan sesekali berasa putus asa dalam menyebarkan agama Allah kerana Allah akan memberikan pertolongannya kepada mereka yang menegakkan agamaNya..." -Ust Masruhan Kiyai Choteb Al-Hafiz, 23 May 2009 Hougang, Singapore

InsyaAllah, a few pemuda and i will be flying off to Surabaya this coming June after being invited by Ust Masruhan Kiyai Choteb (Principal of Pasentran Darul Hikmah, Surabaya).

2009-05-13T15:03:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

this post is specially for my cousins as well as family members..

My message to you:

To those who know what is happening last Sat during the Mother's Day gathering, it is seriously a dissapointment by a few aunts and uncles speeches on family. It show clearly that your intention is not in the right place. We are gathering for grandma, and we should give her to express her feelings all this while and not by certain individual who say things on your own gain and grudges. It is really very dissapointing when they code "Jgn besar-besarkan sesetengah anak saudara". What are you trying to say? I have enough evidence and evidence include my 3 cousins who is staying in Ang Mo Kio. Without the 4 of us visiting grandma every week, do you think the rest will ever do the same? Worst still, no phone call where even made? And you think you are great enough by doing this gathering and start slamming on others? Ya Allah..

Im making my stand first, so as my parents. We are not going to support and help the managemetn who is not professional in doing business. Promise afetr promise is what you have been saying. Where is the evidence telling that you are progressing? Where is the web? Where is the flyers? Who is your customer? Is it the grand mosque again as your main customer? You tactic is no longer relevant. You all can survive all this while and all the sudden you ask us to rejoin you again..? Why? Not enough manpower? Need support? This show that you are losing, but you are still denying it..then how are you going to improve on that.

Dear cousins, they have said that we must stay united, we must mixed around with others, but do they even bother to come or call one another? Worst still, all our invitation were rejected like that. And some of our uncle and aunt still dare to talk about support? Im seriously dissapointed with all this. To those who are reading this, learn it. Think about it if you rally love your family. Don't mention about unity when you don't practise it. Don't mention about support when you don't support the rest of family members in a way or another.

Im firm with my decision.

LONG LIVE MZ SERVICES & PEMUDA AZFAR, ALLAH IS GREAT!

ALLAH IS GREAT!!

2009-05-10T14:28:00.004+08:00

Majlis Zikir

Sesungguhnya berzikir kepada Allah s.w.t merupakan sebaik-baik ibadah kerana ibadah yang lain hanya boleh dilakukan pada waktu-waktu tertentu. Namun ibadah berzikir tidak tertakluk waktunya.

Ibadah yang amat utama sekali ialah sembahyang. Namun demikian, ia hanya boleh dilakukan pada waktu-waktu tertentu. Dimana, ada masa yang dilarang untuk mendirikan sembahyang seperti sesudah sembahyang Subuh hingga matahari kelihatan meninggi. Begitu juga sesudah sembahyang Asar sehingga matahari terbenam.

Puasa pula hanya dilaksanakan pada sebelah siang hari tetapi bukan pada sebelah malam.

Sama juga dengan membaca Al-Quran. Ia dialarang kepada mereka yang berada didalam keadaan berjunub, yakni hadas besar. Larangan sebegini dikenakan disebabkan kehormatan Al-Quran dan kebesarannya.

Namun dalam ibadah berzikir, Allah s.w.t telah memberikan peluang yang luas untuk dikerjakan.

Sesungguhnya, Allah s.w.t telah berfirman:

فَٱذۡكُرُونِىٓ أَذۡكُرۡكُمۡ وَٱشۡڪُرُواْ لِى وَلَا تَكۡفُرُونِ (١٥٢

"Oleh itu berzikirlah (ingatlah) kamu kepadaKu, supaya Aku membalas kamu dengan kebaikan dan bersyukurlah kamu kepadaKu dan janganlah kamu kufur (akan nikmatKu)"

(Al-Baqarah: 152)

Dengan ini, menunjukkan bahawa Allah s.w.t telah menyeru kepada hamba-hambaNya iaitu kita untuk sentiasa mengingatiNya dengan melakukan amalan-amalan soleh seperti berzikir kepadaNya.

Firman Allah s.w.t. lagi:

(يَـٰٓأَيُّہَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ ٱذۡكُرُواْ ٱللَّهَ ذِكۡرً۬ا كَثِيرً۬ا (٤١) وَسَبِّحُوهُ بُكۡرَةً۬ وَأَصِيلاً (٤٢

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, (untuk bersyukur kepada Allah) berzikirlah (ingatlah) serta sebutlah nama Allah dengan zikir (ingatan) serta sebutan yang sebanyak-banyaknya. Dan bertasbihlah kamu kepadaNya pada waktu pagi dan petang." (Al-Ahzab: 41-42)

Dengan ini, jika kita menyatakan bahawa kita ini orang yang beriman, wajiblah bagi kita untuk memperbanyakkan berzikir kepada Allah sw.t. Tidak lain dan tidak bukan, memohon keampunan daripadaNya dan juga RahmatNya. Oleh itu, adakan berzikir kepada Allah ini merupakan satu kesalahan dan dosa yang besar?
Daripada kita berkumpul (beramai-ramai) untuk melakukan kemungkaran dengan mengata, mengeji orang lain dan lain-lainnya, adalah lebih baik jika kita berkumpul untuk berzikir kepada Allah s.w.t.

Nabi s.a.w telah bersabda:
“Tiada suatu perkumpulan yang berkumpul di rumah-rumah Allah (masjid-masjid), mereka berzikir kepada Allah Ta’ala dengan mengharapkan keredhaan Allah Ta’ala, melainkan Allah akan mengampunkan segala dosa dan akan mengubah semua kejahatan mereka menjadi kebaikan.”

Dengan ini, jika berzikir itu diadakan di dalam suatu majlis yang ramai, ia merupakan suatu yang dituntut dan dianjurkan. Wallahu-a’lam.

2009-05-08T16:26:00.008+08:00

Assalamualaikum....

Alhamdulillah, im feeling much more better than the past few weeks. Alhamdulillah, the tube on my right chest have been safely removed. Here are a few pictures taken by the National Heart Centre during the treatment session last week.

This was the tube that have been with me for more than 2 weeks.

"Sesungguhnya, setiap penyakit itu sudah pasti ada penawarnya..." Alhamdulillahi Robbil 'Alamin

Terima kasih kepada semua para-para pelajar, asatizah dan semua yang telah mendoakan dan juga menziarah saya semasa berada di hospital mahupun dirumah. Semoga Allah s.w.t. mengeratkan lagi silaturrahim kita dan mudah-mudahan, kita mendapat rahmatnya bersama.

Ytd was the 1st time i went out after a long time resting at home. I met up with Ustaz Masruhan Kiyai Choteb Al-Hafiz (Guruku dan teman seperjuangan). Zohor at Darul Arqam and had a few discussion there. Was being introduced to new friend Mr. Anis Maricar.

Mr. Anis Maricar

In everything that is happening, there is always a hikmah behind it.. Eversince i was being discharge from the hospital, i have been spending most of the time at home. I guess, i have make use of the time very well with the boys as well. I was really touch with my students (Pemuda AZFAR). Most of them came to have a good quality time with me. Alhamdulillah...im thankful to Him for allowing it to happen.

Even Azhar (frm Australia) contacted me once he got the news that i was being hospitalized...:)

Message to my boys and student:

Dont forget what i have mentioned to each and everyone of you. Remember it, do it, practise it. Do remember that i really love all of you. The task given by HIM to guide you people is not easy, but InsyaAllah i will be able to do it. Ingat pesananku ini, 1) Solat (mahupun Ugama) jangan sesekali ditinggalkan. 2) Ibubapa harus sentiasa dikasihi dan dihormati 3) Akhlak mesti sentiasa baik dan bersih dari segala mcm yang menyakitkan dan yang membawa kepada kemurkaan/kemarahan Allah. 4) Ugama mesti sentiasa dijunjung dan diberatkan. 5) Perjuangan mesti diteruskan walaupun apa yang terjadi demi menegakkan Islam dan keadilan. Dengan ini, InsyaAllah kehidupan kita akan lebih bermakna. Ingatlah pesananku ini...InsyaAllah, Allah akan memudahkan segala urusan kita didunia & diakhirat. Teruskan segala usaha untuk menjadi manusia yang berguna, bertanggungjawab di dunia dan juga menjadi Muslim yang cemerlang di akhirat kelak. Jangan sesekali berputus asa, kerana putus asa itu hanya akan merugikan kita. Tanamkan semangat yang baru agar kita terus bersatu. Ingat, bukan harta yang kita kejarkan, tapi perjuangan Rasulullah s.a.w yang akan kita teruskan demi agama yag kita cinta. Semoga Allah memberikan segala bantuanNya kepada kita, hamba-hambaNya. Amin

Ya Allah, ampunilah segala dosa-dosa kami, dosa kedua ibubapa kami dan juga sekalian dosa Muslimin & Muslimat. Mudahkanlah segala urusan kami ini Ya Allah. Limpahkan lah Rahmat dan Kasih SayangMu kepada kami. Bantulah kami ini Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau lah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang...Amin

2009-04-30T07:03:00.005+08:00

DOCTOR'S REPORT ON THE HEALTH OF MUHD ZUHAILI

Muhammad Zuhaili is currently suffering from a pneumothorax, or collapsed lung, is a potential medical emergency caused by accumulation of air or gas in the pleural cavity. A pneumothorax can occur spontaneously, or as the result of disease or injury. Chest wound
Penetrating wounds (also known as 'sucking chest wounds') require immediate coverage with an occlusive dressing, field dressing, or pressure bandage made air-tight with petroleum jelly or clean plastic sheeting. The sterile inside of a plastic bandage packaging is good for this purpose; however in an emergency situation any airtight material, even the cellophane of a cigarette pack, can be used. A small opening, known as a flutter valve, may be left open so the air can escape while the lung reinflates. Any patient with a penetrating chest wound must be closely watched at all times and may develop a tension pneumothorax or other immediately life-threatening respiratory emergency at any moment. They cannot be left alone.

What he currently was a spontaneous pneumothorax. Spontaneous Pneumothorax can be classified as primary spontaneous pneumothorax and secondary spontaneous pneumothorax. In primary spontaneous pneumothorax, it is usually characterized by a rupture of a bleb in the lung while secondary spontaneous pneumothorax mostly occurs due to chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (COPD).

Primary spontaneous pneumothorax
A primary spontaneous pneumothorax may occur without either trauma to the chest or any kind of blast injury. This type of pneumothorax is caused when a bleb (an imperfection in the lining of the lung) bursts causing the lung to deflate. The lung is reinflated by the surgical insertion of a chest tube. A minority of patients will suffer a second instance. In this case, thoracic surgeons often recommend thorascopic pleurodesis to improve the contact between the lung and the pleura. If multiple and/or bilateral occurrences continue, surgeons may opt for a far more invasive bullectomy and pleurectomy to permanently adhere the lung to the interior of the rib cage with scar tissue, making collapse of that lung physically impossible. Primary spontaneous pneumothorax is most common in tall, thin men between 17 and 40 years of age, without any history of lung disease. Though less common, it also occurs in women, usually of the same age and body type. The tendency for primary spontaneous pneumothorax sufferers to be tall and thin is not due to weight, diet or lifestyle, but because the genetic predisposition toward those traits often coincides with a genetic predisposition toward high volume lungs with large, burstable blebs. A small portion of primary spontaneous pneumothoraxes occur in persons outside the typical range of age and body type.

X-rays result:

UPDATES: He will be going to the Heart Centre later today at 3pm for further treatment. Meanwhile, all his classes will only resume back on 9 May, InsyaAllah.

MUHDZUHAILI Services, Singapore

2009-04-24T12:48:00.009+08:00

Salam....im back frm the nightmare in the hospital for the past few days despite the tube is still here hanging on my right chest.

Its all started this way....

Alhamdulillah, the Ceramah last Sat went well. Crowd was like, ok ok lah because Ust Daud is not that well known here in Singapore but we are trying to promote him here.

Otw home from the mosque which was ard 11.15pm, suddenly felt as if i have a heart attack. the pain was...urghhh, undescribable. Went home, had a cup of water before went to bed. thinking that tmr will be better.

Unfortunately, the pain got worst on Sun especially in the afternoon. the pain not only caught the attention of my right chest, but also my backbone...its terrible. My 2nd PA came to assist me. Was crying on the pain, squeezing his hand in pain. then, they (PA & parents) contacted the ambulance. the ambulance came within 15mins, took me to Changi General Hospital instead of Tan Tock Seng as its already closed due to overcrowding patient like me..huh.

Arrived at A&E, they scanned, they knocked my chest, the placed wires after wires...then finally they said this "Ok sir, we have to insert the tube in your right chest (lungs) to safe you...we need you to relax for now!" then, the inject me with whatever thingy and immediately i fall aslp...then they start experimenting me i think..haha

Woke up it was alrdy 12midnight and they was otw to bring me to the wards. i remember that mum and dad kissed my forehead before leaving..i knock out till the next day (Mon).

I received a 1st call from Mr Nur Johari. was shocked man..who told him abt it also i dunno. Phone wasn't with me the day before. Then at ard 12noon, start receiving guest especially close family members, friends and others...the things that touches me is that a few Ulama have contacted me then, asking my well-being such as Ust Hassan Din Al-Hafiz & Ust Daud Che Ngah. Ust Masruhan Kiayi Choteb came immediately after hearing the news that i was admitted..yeah..Jazakallahu Khairan.

Later in the night, my bestfriends and mentor came, Nur Johari. It was a very touching moment lah..he came when my parents just left the room. He was being ushers by both mum and dad..haha:)

We talked, he was curious on what is happening to me as we just met last week..we talk and talk. i could see the tears in his eyes but he still trying to control it..i know that..

Then, Azri & Ibrahim came. i was so delighted to see them that night. We had a good chat with Mr Johari as well before he left. the pain came again and i was too tired/weak that i was put to slp by Ibrahim and Azrie before they went home at ard 10.15pm.

The doct told me that my lungs was flatted due to the amount of air surrounding it. that cause the pain in my right chest. the pain could be felt this the backbone, causing me difficulties in walking, sit-up and more. i became dependable on others to help me to do my daily needs. but i still force myself to do it as i knw i can. I was allowed to go home yesterday afternoon eventough the test tube is still there. I have to go to Singapore General Hospital (SGH) next week for treatment. if im ok, then they will take out the tube or else i have to undergo an operation...i really hope that i won't need the operation..i dun want it...seriously..

the tube at my right chest

Specially thanks to all the nurses in Ward 44, Dr. Alfred Wong, Dr Nanedran & Dr. John Law who always help me during the treatment there.

2009-04-16T17:58:00.004+08:00

Salam...well, lets start frm ytd.

Ytd had a great time with an old friend/buddy/motivator (simply undescribable), Nur Johari..hahaha. Met up with him at 6pm at City Hall. from there, we headed for dinner at Funan and we are craving for Swensen..hahaha. yumyum..:)

Had a gooood talk with and guess what? he shed his tears when he heard abt what is happening to me (i mean the positive and negative lah)..i guess he was touch...awww...:) but yeah, i felt like crying also but, mcm malu gitu..serious man.

We talk abt our life, the past history, the pleasant and bitter experience...thank you so much for your trust. i really appreciate it.

Ya Allah, my grandfather [paternal side] was being admitted just now. He was admitted due to poor condition in health. i headrd frm aunt that he is not doing well lately..yeah..

oh yeah, today is exactly 7 years (in Islamic Calender) that my grandfather (maternal side) passed away. In the normal calender, it was 1 July when he passed away.

i miss his voice

i miss his laughter

i miss the time when he read the newspaper on my bed

i miss the time when he came to buy me breakfast

i miss his warm touch

i miss his kiss on my forehead

i miss his love overall...

Ya Allah, Engkau curahkanlah Rahmat & Kasih sayangMu keatas Rohnya Ya Allah

Engkau ampunkan lah dosa-dosanya Ya Allah

Engkau terimalah semua amal kebajikan yang telah dikerjakan selama ini Ya Allah

Masukkan lah dia kedalam SyurgaMu Ya Allah..

Datuk,

Tidak dapat kubalas jasamu, melainkan doa yang dapat ku kirimkan dari jauh. Sungguh rindu dihati ini, mengingatkan kenangan yang sentiasa bermain dihati. Kasih sayangmu belum dapat ku balas, namun engkau pergi meninggalkan aku buat selama-lamanya. Semakin hari semakin jauh, engkau pergi meninggalkan aku. Dugaan demi dugaan yang aku hadapi, selepas engkau pergi meninggalkan aku. Namun pasrah hatiku ini, meneruskan perjuangan yang suci. Alangkah bangga jika engkau disisi, melihat cucumu yang engkau kagumi. Meneruskan perjuagan yang murni walau dibidas darah sendiri. Namun perjuangan tetap aku teruskan, demi Allah dan pesananmu kepadaku sebelum engkau pergi....

2009-04-13T11:54:00.001+08:00

(Click on the picture to enlarge)

2009-04-08T22:30:00.019+08:00

Salam...just arrived frm KL which my plane arrived at 7.30pm today @ T1 due to delay which was supposed to reach by 6.40pm...haizz..

Well, heres the picts...

Had dinner at Pappa Rich at Jalan Bukit Bintang a.k.a Arab St in KL on the 1st day..Its like a Nyonya kind of restaurant . i think it is a unique way the way the restaurant functions. the concept of the restaurant is excellent. Here it is...every table of the restaurant have this unique thing. it is a like a "table bell" where we just press on various functions such as "water", "bill" and "order". when you press it, all those things will come to you without saying...cool rite? yeah..i think we locals should try to implement this here.. The yummy Nyonya's food....
Mummy....:) with her Dry Curry Mee & Bananan Milk Shake with real banana in ti...lovely

The next day, we headed to Beryl's Chocolate Factory after breakfast as there was a sale there...mengileeeeerrr kau..haha

here are a few chocolate that is specially made here such as this...Spicy man...serious...Spend at least RM 289.90 (S$140+) just in the chocolate factory...haiz...but, oklah. haha.

headed to Sogo for sales again. had lunch at Secret Recipe. i like this pict which i took..hahaha. but, not bad wat..haha

Took plane frm KLIA which took more than an hour to reach there frm hotel..here are a few picts taken frm plane. All this picts menunjukkan Kebesaran Allah s.w.t yang tidak dapat dilakukan oleh manusia yang kerdil seperti kita..Subhanallah

Received a call this morning...same thing about trying to undermind MZ Services movement and administration.

Ya Allah, berikan lah hambaMu ini kekuatan untuk melawan semua fitnah yang telah dilempahkan kepada hambaMu ini...

Jangan lawan sembarang lawan, sekali lawan TETAP lawan. Lawan sampai MENANG!!!

2009-04-05T21:42:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum..hehehehe. A new template for a brand new day. hahah.

Well, here are a few updates a few days back.

Ytd (4 April)
Woke up for Subuh and getting ready for Madrasah Class @ Hougang. Taught them Aqidah on Beriman kpd Malaikat and Juz Amma. Must do more hafalan yeah student. :)

Then went to International Plaza (Anson Rd - Tanjong Pagar) for MZ Services business renewal. Alhamdulillah, it is successful. Went there with mum. Had lunch @ BK @ International Plaza. end ard 12.15pm. From there, we headed home.

Mum went home while i went to Alkaff mosque(Upp Serangoon) for Fardhu Ain class. Zohor there and class started @ 2pm till 2.45pm.

Headed home and then proceed to Parkway Parade to meet mum, aunt and granny. Had so call "dinner" at Banquet. Supposedly to be at Pastamania but ramai nah manusia...haiz..

Then home sweet home..hehehe. Usually i have class at 5pm till Maghrib and then Hougang after Isyak till 10pm...penat oi..Astaghfirullah...

Anw, i wont be in town tmr. will be away for KL till Wed. Ok then, gd nites.

Wassalam

2009-04-02T20:09:00.011+08:00

Hey people...i knw, i knw that i have been MIA all this while..haha.

Ok, 1stly,

Alhamdulillahi Robbil 'Alamin.

Sambutan Maulidur Rasul organised by MUHD ZUHAILI Services & Pemuda Azfar goes well.

Some of the picts taken...

Junior Pemuda Azfar

Pemudi Azfar/Pegawai together with Ust Hassn Din Al-Hafiz (Malaysia)

Then, on the 20thMarch, met up with Nurul Farihin for her bdae celebration. Oh Gosh, pls dun remind me of the food....i just cant take RAAAWWWW Foood OK!?!haha. had a good chat after that...yeah

I met up with Ust Masruhan Kiyai Choteb Al-Hafiz (Indonesian-S'pore PR) a few days after that. We tend to meet up to catch up some stuff and make use of the time to learn/discuss all about Dakwah, Islam etc. Alhamdulillah, making friends with him have taught me to be more confident in whatever i am doing now. Its not easy when you received critics etc but its all a challenge given by Him to test you Iman afterall.

MZ: Ust, kadang-kala ana(me) berasa khairan...knape bila kita melakukan kebaikan dihina. manakala mereka yang melakukan kemungkaran tidak diperkata apa?

Ust: Ini semua dugaan..biakan saja. Jangan putus asa, teruskan perjuangan. Kuliah anta(you) dimasjid-masjid teruskan. Tidak ada masalah. Yang penting, niat kita ikhlas, Allah akan sentiasa bersama orang-orang yang menegakkan agama Islam.

MZ: InsyaAllah Ust...Amin

Ust Masruhan is a very kind man, a well respected man. I respect him as my teacher and as an Ulama.. Semoga Allah s.w.t. merahmatinya selalu, Amin Ya Robbal 'Alamin

Our pict during a meet up/discussion session at Madrasah Al-Khairiah (Still Rd)

During ceramah Maulidur Rasul at Wak Tanjong Mosque.

Theres something happen recently abt family..yeah. dun feel like mentioning it now. Malas arh mak cakap..asyik2 benda yang sama. Bila nak bertaubat manusia ni pun tak tahu...Haiz...

Ya Allah, berikan lah taufiq hidayahMu kepada orang-orang Muslim yang masih belum mendapat petunjukMu Ya Allah...

Wassalam....

2009-03-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillahi Robbil 'Alamin

2009-02-11T14:37:00.004+08:00

To a special guest, "Someone"

Assalamualaikum...

Firstly, i would like to thank you for visiting my ugly blogspot and tagging at my tagboard yeah. Really appreciate it and i guess, i need to do some "Muhasabah Diri" and i would like to invite you to join in as well. That will be even better. Yeah, this "coward Ustaz" knw that he is just a normal human being. And Alhamdulillah, you have tell me that your grandfather is much more handsome than me? Really? I hope to be able to see him one day to have a cup of tea and telling him how "fortunate" to have a grandchild like you yeah? :) Oh well, MUIS did not even chase me (let me correct your sentence). In fact, whatever they do and i do, is for the better of our Malay/Muslim community including you (if you are one). I believe there is not need of your intereference between me and MUIS as you have nothing to do with it at all. :) sorry. You may asked my student what i have taught them all this while. Have i ever bribe them? Force them? Is it "worshipping" me or Allah? I dont know abt you but hopefully Allah.

I believe whatever i do, there is no need to seek your permission or getting a blessed out of you, but i believe for Allah. I never ask/force/bribe others to reply for me at my tagboard as i don't wish to see any of our brothers and sisters to fight what more in the same religion. To you, i really hope that you will perform Taubat before it is late as whatever you mention here, remind me of "Hampirnya Hari Kiamat" thank you for reminding me, but don't forget to remind yourself too as another sin have been created here. :)

Everyone interpret differently. If you say that your grandfather is much more good looking than me, then Alhamdulillah. Because afterall, everythings is in Allah's Hand and not His servant (just like you and me). Let me tell you one think, never to feel embarrased with normal human being but its better to be embarrased when it is time to meet Allah...i am only embarrased with Allah and not anyone in this earth. As you and me are simply nothing in His eyes. Remember that. :)

Lastly, i pray to HIM so that you will one day realised that nothing in this world is perfect than Allah s.w.t. HIMSELF. Im sure if you learn "Sifat 20/Tauhid"(if you do learn and understand) that NO one is perfect than Allah s.w.t. Same goes to you and me...

Wassalam

Yang Fakir lagi Hina kepada Allah,
HambaMu
Muhammad Zuhaili

2009-01-17T12:53:00.003+08:00

DOWN WITH ISRAEL!!

Look at all those video to see the brutal and heartless Israel.

Ya Allah, Engkau bantulah rakyat Palestine yang tidak berdosa Ya Allah...

2009-01-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl..im blogger via my hp..haha. Cool uh..anw, had a tiring day 2dae.

We had a mting wif è Maulid Org Comm at 530pm followed by selawat practise session wif all è junior PemudaAZFAR..:) my body is like...urghh..but thx 2 my PA 4 a gd massage by him. Ok then, wana slp nw..gd nites. B4 i close my eyes, juz wana wish my cuzzin, Azrin A Happee Bdae 2 u sis....;)

2008-12-31T18:51:00.005+08:00

Ok...just cm home last Sun morning with a gd experience with the AirAsia...not bad. cheap, and really budget..hahaha.

With Oma @ the hotel lobby...

Mum and Oma...

Ohya, my article came out last Sat (27 Dec) @ the BERITA HARIAN...read it, and reflect dude...

my dessert for dinner...(self-creation) hahaha

OK!! IM TIRED!!! Bye...and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!hahaha

2008-12-26T08:55:00.002+08:00

WON'T BE IN TOWN FROM 26 DEC (NOON) TILL 28 DEC (10AM)

WILL BE BACK ON 28 DEC @ 10AM @ TERMINAL 1, CHANGI AIRPORT.
Thank you.

Information Department
MZ Travel & Services Pte Ltd

2008-12-25T15:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO MY BELOVED MUM & DAD!!!!

My favourites pict of them...weeee... anw, we are going out today since it is Christmas for dinner to celebrate their wedding anniversary...yayyy!! hehe..

ok, to my dearest RealisticMaster, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. I hope you will start a fresh this coming new year and start looking at the mirror carefully before slamming me up and down coz you will get it in hell...., i promise you that..:)

2008-12-22T18:49:00.005+08:00

HOT NEWS!!!!

I make a police report today after granny's place was alarmed with that bloody red paint. Here is the you go:

That idotic "Tai Long" wrote at the wall a week ago "#02-662" while grandma add was #02-683....so, he might thought grandma's place was the house???? Haizzzzz

Well, hopefully everythg will be back in order now, InsyaAllah...

2008-12-18T11:01:00.004+08:00

Last night, my former PA ask me out for a movie. its his treat afterall..heheh. The movie is not that bad...its nice..yeah. You should watch..recommended.

ohwell, she was trhe actress in the movie..she is soooooooooooo Pretty man...wow..;P
ok then...

2008-12-17T10:33:00.002+08:00

The strength is in me....

Alfi came ytd afternoon for class as he did not able to attend last Sat. Then, Hisham came for his photo (pass), followed by my PA. Then. we had a chat for a while after that. I told them that Rais's dad was admitted to the hospital. therefore we decided to pay a visit. end up, onli my PA and i..haizz..hehe

I remember that Ibrahim's mum was in ward also in the same hospital. therefore i text him for the ward and bed number. He was there eventually. We headed to visit Rais's dad 1st. Alhamdulillah, he was slightly better. We talk for a while...of coz, its about him. hahaha. PA was just smiling and standing still to hear our conversation where a dad put a trust on me to look after his child and guide him as far as i could...wow...its heavy when i heard it man...

Then, we headed to visit Ibrahim's mum. Ya Allah...i almost shed my tears...while the PA was at the state of shocked (i mean half shocked)...My message for Ibrahim:

"Dear bro, i really hope you will be strong in this matter. You have to give the encouragement to your mum. Its all HIM who decides afterall, you knw that well. Remember, may every suffering that she faced, Allah s.w.t. will forgive every sins of her, InsyaAllah...im always here for you..."

And a message to my PA and the rest of Pemuda Azfar:

"May this be a learning lesson to you and appreciate life more. May you knw that what we have does not belongs to us 100%, its all His...And always remember now, that He is more powerful than anything in this world. When he said "Be it", it will always be..."

I don't aspect you will face this tough moment bro....be strong, im always here for you...

We then we out as her mum was sleeping, we had a privat discussion between himand the PA. We were talking abt our future together as in MZ and Pemuda..I really hope you are ready bro..

We need a leadership to continue to bring MZ to the peak of the mountain...and thankyou so much for the trust you have in me and the support you gave me. i was shocked to hear your oath of loyalty to me and MZ...your loyalty means a lot as it is not words but sacrificed that is needed also...

2008-12-15T10:58:00.003+08:00

Ok i knw...lets blog..hweee...

Ok, hmmmm...lets start with Fri k? I went for my friday prayers @ Al-Falah mosque as im meeting y dearest sis Nurul Farihin Bte Ahmad in town. so yeah..prayers ended like ard 145pm, then i headed to the mrt station to get her..hahaha.

We went for our meal then and had the lovely ayam penyet there. it was great but i prefer her's which is the daging penyet thingy..yeah. OMG, i hv been eating meat like crazy man eversince hari raya korban..hahahah

We talked, we laugh and we joked..then we went to

(hahaha..i remember i took this lovely pict when i was in Sabah 2007).

Well, of coz i can read you like a book. afterall we are siblings with a different parents rite? hehehe. Well, thankyou for ur understanding..really appreciate that. i really hope and pray that our relationship and friendship will last too...remember, i will always be there for you sis..insyAllah.

What you said abt it was ture...very true indeed. let's wait till the time comes yeah..i will. just the matter of time..:)

Then i headed home as my appointment with mum and dad was cancel..haizz...

Sat was kind of bored except for kelas. we start on our new kitab as the boys was great. Alhamdulillah, nasib baik faham pasal Sifat 20..:) in the afternn, Uncle Sudin's family come over for dinner at nenek's place. we had a great time talking, laughing, joking together. ohwell, kak wan was very happy as im finally there on Sat as i usually will be hving class after maghrib @ hougang..hahaha.

On Sun, my mum and i as well as my granny and aunt went to NTUC Fairprice @ AMK Hub..it was oklah...there is this show on Looney Tunes..haha..watever...*lame

ok then...

2008-12-12T08:42:00.002+08:00

A few questions have been raise about me…there it goes:

1) What do you do in the morning after you open your eyes?
I will go to the washroom, shower, then will perform the morning prayers before going to the lappy for emails etc…yeah..its a daily routine.

2) What do you always have for breakfast?
I rarely have my breakfast but I take break, cereals or sometimes it’s a heavy one like Nasi Lemak.

3) What type of place that you prefer to go out and chill?
Hmmmm…somewhere where there is less people, cold (I mean average temperature) with a cup of tea/cappuccino. It will be great..yeah.

4) What can you about your business now?
Hahaha..im not a POA student or even step myself in the business courses, but yeah. Alhamdulillah, its running smoothly and I feel very proud and satisfied. Not fully satisfied, but its quite an achievement for my age..yeah..heheh

5) Is it true that MZ begins when you are in secondary school?
Yup..that is where the name is starting to move up…I mean, promoting and selling the name first. But now, we are there…

6) What can you simply describe about your boys as in the Pemuda?
Hahahaha…ok, I really love them as my own flesh as I don’t have any…J there are my breathe now..my strength, my wheel power…yeah..

7) How about your personal life? As in, you can be describe as a successful youngman with a company of your own, with the people around you who are loyal to you, then, how about a girlfriend? Is there any?
Hahahaha….tell me about it…hahaha. Ok, yeah, it’s a question being raise a few times, but yeah…not at the moment. Can I just say tis, its “indescribable” hahahah.

8) When was the last you had a girlfriend?
Hahaha..its personal. For me to know and for you to find out..:)

9) What you always describe your girlfriend or love ones as?
My backbone…yeah….because in every successful man, there is always a woman behind him…my strength and breathes…the one who gave a new hope.

10) Do you still keep any grudges against anyone? As in enemy, or anyone who ever hurt you in a way or another.
Well, who are we to do that. Of cos it’s hurt deeply inside, but we have to forgive them still. Even Prophet Muhammad (SAW) forgives his follower, then how about us? Like I said, when a fire lights a village/city, it could be seen. But the fire in the hurt, no one knows..:) yeah…

11) Are you a forgiving person in nature?
Yes..i am. But I can easily forgive but I will never forget it..

12) What can you describe life now?
Hmm….well, overall its ok. Alhamdulillah. But I cant conclude it here as I still have not undergo a few stages of life yet…yeah..hahah

13) Who is the person that is close with you besides your family members?
Hmm…my former teacher and my best friend, Mr Johari. And yeah, my PA, Murtadza..hahah

14) What can you learn from them?

Our thesis together on life, the final journey…and the quality time…

15) What other things you want to say here?
Ok, done…im tired. Hahaha. Thankyou

2008-12-11T12:12:00.008+08:00

Hello Human!!!! heheh.

Firstly, Alhamdulillahi Robbil 'Alamin. The korban/aqiqah which was organised by MZ Services went well. Weeeee:). had a great time there. Mcm VIP gitu..haha. Yeah..it was a great experince there..

The speed boat frm Sekupang to Belakang Padang...heheh

For more pict, click here

Ok then..

2008-12-05T17:58:00.003+08:00

Hey people...im back...yeah

Alhamdulillah, the wisata went well. Thanks to all the dedicated staff who have make it a memoriable one..:)
Well, IM BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORED!!!!!! After i came home, this body is feeling very lethargic. Feelings? hmph, it have been a mixed feeling alway...no ending. but if you mix an vanilla ice cream with a caramel, it will turn sweet rite? or if you mix an orange with a lime, it will turn sour..but mine is all over. vanilla + caramel + lime + orange + coke = mixed feelings....yeah..

Ya Allah, why am i feeling so lonely??? Why am i feeling so down??? Why am i feeling like this??? Honestly, im feeling damn lonely lately. You knw what i mean..? yeah. Brain is like cracking with MZ, with school, with life, with this and that....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.Damn it..i need someone to talk to...i need a shoulder to shed my tears...i need a supporting bone, a backbone that will boost me up again...im drowning i think...yeah...Ya Allah, give me the strength pls....help me...

Sorry for posting this but, yeah..im very weak now...

2008-11-28T09:06:00.002+08:00

Well, the day have come. Wisata Kelantan/Terengganu will take part tonight...yeah, excited + nervous + sad + happy= MIXED FEELING/EMOTIONS....hahah

Im kind of worried, what will happen here when im not around. A simple message to all:

Hey there..hope you are doing find there. It was sad when you could not make it for the trip just due to what happened recently. But afterall, its a learning point. Ratib Al-Haddad that was given yesterday is for you and everyone to take it as an amalan for yourself. I think i have explain to you ppl the benefits from it..yeah. Well, i really hope whatever is being express and told, will eventually make you a stronger person and a better one infact. I will always pray for you and the rest to ensure that NO one can break us apart except Him. Make good use of the time now to really plan for your next step and i hope, it wont be a wrong step again...:) Take good care of yourself and i will be back on Monday, InsyaAllah. Pray for my safety as well as the rest of the jemaah going in the banner of MZ Travel & Services..:):D

That's all....yeah...

2008-11-26T10:40:00.003+08:00

Yes, you dissappoint me..you did. Not even one of my boys ever did this kind of thing involving you knw what...never. But you, the 1 that i trusted, the 1 that i look after, the 1 who is loyal to MZ no matter what which i see that you are too loyal and in love with MZ....did this. It hurts...

What your mum and dad said is for your own good. Its not a lie or what..but its a fact at times. You have to reflect on it bro. We just had a quality time together. We spend our time at granny's place as usual to spill out things..we did. I was hoping that i could knocked some sense into you, could change you, you inspire you just the way i did with the rest.....

It makes me feel low...damn low. As if i have not done enough in guiding you ppl for a better and a meaningful living...i failed. If not, things won't be like what is happening now.

The first time when Ayam brought you in, i was proud. I see that you have the talent. But as day passed by, i could see that you started to change. Im your bro...thats what you confess and you declare to people. But do you knw that at times i don't feel what a brother should be treated by his younger brother? Which is respect....i still close an eye for you and the rest. I never teach all of you to be rude, rough, irrespectful etc...never rite?:) I was hoping when i take you as my PA, it helps you better. Where you will be close with me, learn as much frm me and may one day take over MZ when im no longer around.....can't you simply grant your brother's wish? that's all he wanted. not more than that. I want your life to be meaningful that you will never regret of living in this little earth and with the people ard you who treasure you, who love you, who care for you...

Bro, no matter what, you are still a brother to me who still need my guidance for a better and a meaningful life. I knw and i sense that. Im willing to forgive you but, i really want a change from you. This incident is a wake-up called for you. Itupun if you sedar. It is a wake-up called.....remember what Abg Fi said....jgn sampai org........(i dun have to complete the sentence. i mentioned it during the quality time). Everyone will forgive, but they will never forget. But once they cannot forget, learn frm that incident and NEVER repeat ANY stupid mistake anymore...

I have heart, i have mercy..but i think, you really need to seek from HIM above for forgiveness as you have hurt a few hearts that really love you bro...only HE can help...that is how im now, all thanks to HIM...

Love

Your Bro

Muhd Zuhaili

2008-11-18T19:10:00.003+08:00

Hey....just came home from settling some stuff for wisata. Gosh, EXPO is around the corner. Im so so so excited + nervous + stress = @#$!? watever....

Hopefully everthing is in order. Well, i was given a wake up call by my PA on certain things...infact, a common things but it really touches my heart. He came to fetch me to Arab St (Concourse to be exact to settle the goodies for the wisata trip which is next week. But it was no longer there..wth..). It was normal for him to enter the house and waited for me to welcome him in the living room. when i sat down with him, he told me that he wanted to tell me something. Sound serious...yeah..

Suddenly, he burst into tears...i was shocked. He saw me in tears before but i have not seen him burst into tears before....then, the story start...let me tell you this, this is the best part that i really enjoy, the quality time.

Quality time here mentioned the period where we shared our sorrow and even our joy to one another. Im basically refering this about the boys..Yeah, im their elder bro..It put up a smile in me whenever it happens. because, i enjoy it. I knw, you still need me to be with you. I know that and i sense that. Well, i can only advise and give you tips on how to solve your prob etc, but you are the 1 who have to choose the path urself. Not me...i have my own path to choose.

it makes me happy when the quality time is being spend...some prefer through phones or sms. But i prefer one to one talk..as i mentioned before to you ppl, you tell me your sorrow and prob, then? How abt me? Where should i tell mine?...:)

Akar nibung meresap,

Akar mati dalam perahu.

Terbakar kampung kelihatan asap,

Terbakar hati siapa yang tahu....

We talk for almost 4mins or even an hour...i cant denied the fact that i shed my tears also when thing abt the past or what is happening now. Haizzz....but, He knw the best why all this happen.

To my PA: Thankyou for being one of the best pemuda that i ever had as well as being the most trusted person in me now. I see potential in you, thats why i trust you. If you think there is no one trust you, i will.....:') remember, im your teacher, im your friend and im your bro. Will always be there for my boys...trust me:)

To anther PA: im proud of you...but, i really hope to see you changed...i really do. I think i have said to you earlier, you decide...lastly, respect is still needed no matter what...:) i believe, its time for a change. Think, reflect on life, search for the answer, and you will definitely find it...we love you, thats why we care....k bro? :)

2008-11-17T19:23:00.003+08:00

Well, IM BORED!!!!

It have been a while since i work and now its like..urghhhh. ok, forrget it.

Its like, this brain of mine keep on thinking, thinking and thinking like no one business causing me to have migraine...Ya Allah...

Ok, one of my boys came today. Just to have a check. Yelah, dulu bila dier keje, sibuk na...sampai takda masa nak get update pasal kita org...but now, even an hour is a quality time. :) we talk and discuss a lot, even a bt relationship. Well, i have share my to him...as an example.

what do you knw abt love? what do you knw abt life? Lets say it is complicated. Indeed, it is...seriously. But no matter what, you have to move on and go with the flow...:) rite boy?

He then told me this, "Asal you taknak buat buku ke novel on your love story..?" hahahaha. What is so special and interesting abt mine love story...it always end with the negative side of it. its not a fairytales that i use to hope for...but, its all in His hand...well, let me say this, maybe i will give it a try by just sharing it in this blog where it is all abt my mind, my life and my heart....

Its a a story of hope, love (maybe puppy-love, hehe), life and also friendship....yeah...will begin it soon...lets take it, and learn from it..we reflect on our life and love..are we fit to be love and to give our love....

Chapter 1

It was a fresh day, almost the same day where morning appear after night. Thinking of what to be done today is my daily routine. Putting on the tie which use to be the pride of me as the student leader, infact, the first Malay male to be selected in the board of student council. I was proud, and ambitious of getting what i want. Even neglect that i was a youngman and in fact a teenagers who are supposed to lead a "wild" and a "happy-go-lucky" type of life. The main question towards me was "Realtionship and Girlfriend (Gf)".

Seeing my pal hanging, dating them make me fell awkward about myself. even feel stupid and lousy at time. Am I a nerd? Am i not handsome? How i wish i could be like him where almost every girls would want him. Question after question appear in me. Especially when a beautiful girl walk just walk acrossed you like the Next America's Top Model.

I did try to ask for a date from a classmate of mine who have the look like a Chinese girl when she is a Malay. But, it was just a betting type. Honestly, i don't prefer that. In me, love is not about challenging your rival, but its all about the sincerity in you. That's why, He prohibit me from getting close to her, so as her i think.

The school is now having a dilema with a new principal who was extremely ambitious, which make me hate her. While in the eyes of my classmates, i am one of her.

As a president of my CCA then, i was assigned to put up an exhibit in the school library to promote the CCA as well as the school of some Ministry of Education award kind of thing. I was anxious of making my CCA booom. Of cause, feeling proud and confident as the president exist in me. Which i learn later that rank and position does not bring happiness at all.

I was busy with stuff, putting up poster, distributing flyers, but there was an angel that came stood by the side, looking at me for the first time. Well, she is beautiful. But deep in me, i will never get her no matter what even if i try. As a president, i have to look upon my image, being ego at times, putting up the high chin of my, thinking that im the best of the best. But actually, im not. I lack of something. That is love.

I am the only child to my parents. Mum could not get pregnant after a surgery thet took place at her womb. "Why i don't have a sibling?" then to be the cause of the tears in my mum. I know it was painful for her, even dad. But as time goes by, i understand why. But no matter what, you will always be my parents till i close my eyes. I love you mum and dad.

Chapter 2

Will continue it soon...

2008-11-16T11:30:00.001+08:00

2008-11-10T18:09:00.002+08:00

Hasbi Robbi.wma - Pemuda Azfar

"Tiada amalan bagi anak Adam yang boleh menyelamatkannya dari azab Allah melainkan dengan berzikir kepadaNya." (Riwayat Ibnu Syaidah)

2008-11-03T11:42:00.011+08:00

Let's begin with last week.

Tuesday

5am - Depart frm home to Kuala Lumpur

6.45am - Arrived at Machap for Subuh Prayer

9.05am - Arrived at Sungai Besi (Entrance toll for Kuala Lumpur)

9.30am - Central KL, head to Ampang Point for Breakfast with the President of Muslim Chef Association of Singapore (MCAS)

10.30am - Head to Tiara Ruby Apartment for an exclusive meet up with Chef Wan.

10.45am - Arrvied at Chef Wan's private residence

12noon - Depart from Tiara Ruby Apartment to Johor Bahru

2.30pm - Stop over at Ayer Keroh (Melaka) for Zohor Prayer before heading back to Johor

4.30pm - Arrived at Johor for shopping and resting at Giant (Angsana)

6pm - Dinner at Danga Bay Seafood Restaurant

6.45pm - Head back to Singapore

Here are some of the pictures taken:

With the president of MCAS, Chef Hemran, Chef Wan, Chef Jaafar, Me & Bro Amil

Chef Wan & the Secretary General of MCAS..hehehe

Yeah...tads abt it...hahah

2008-10-28T13:03:00.009+08:00

Yes!! Im finally out ffrom there..yay!!!

Well for now, i would like to spend more time with my family as well as myself.

Well for the pass few days (last Fri - Mon[ytd]), spent time at Singapore Expo for the Asian Muslim Consumer Showcase organised by MeVM Pte Ltd. Well, the boys did a great job of coz..:) proud of you people :D

The Good, The Bad, The Ugly & The Innocent..hehe (clockwise from let). Ooniy (in MZ vest) was very cute. hahah. he wrote/listed down all the time for prayers from Zohor till Isyak. N yes, we managed to pray all the 4 waktu together as he wanted too..hehe.

Im leaving tomorrow morning as early as 5am to KL to meet someone there and will be back by the afternoon... check it out yeah....:)

2008-10-08T12:14:00.003+08:00

Hi people..

Firstly, before i start blogging, i wana apologise to all fellow reader, friends as well as those who read this blog for my mistake while blogging by making some statement that may not satisfied any of your feelings yeah..my sincere apology.

Alrite, where should i start...hmmm...ok, Welcome Home Nurul Farihin Bte Ahmad! Poud of you.hehehe. Ohya, i would like to invite all of you for my Hari Raya Open house on the 19 Oct.

Well, life is getting tough as day passed by. Things are getting more and more complicated. Maybe, lets just say that its fated to be like that.

Its hard for me to accept any promises now. Because at least 2 promises have been break by the individual that make it. Afterall, people change within 24hours rite?

Alhamdulillah, im happy with my life now. Except for what is happening lately. As what i expect here, there is a conspiracy to get me out of the office. I know and i sense it. Infact, its true. Its happening. Im just waiting for the right time to get out of here. Let me resign on my own rather than beibng sacked.

What should i do next? Well, i would like to focus on my education (theology), leaving the relationship life aside as it really hurts. People knw that they are being hurt, but how about the other want? They do feel hurt rite? Haizzz..

Whatever it is, i will still fight on till i win this game of Life. InsyaAllah...

2008-09-30T17:47:00.003+08:00

To all Muslim friends...I would like to take this opportunity to wish you Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin. I would like to apologise for all my wrong-doing whether it is on purpose or not.

Anw, you are all invited to my Hari Raya Open house on 19 Oct (Sun) from 12noon till 5pm @ Blk 174 AMK Ave 4. Hope to see all fellow friends, ex/present Deyians and many more...Alrite then, have a great Hari Raya with your family...Wassalam

2008-09-20T09:56:00.006+08:00

Another issue appear again. I just received a call from M_I_ stating that i have to go there this aftnn...wat is it all abt? wat is it again?? Im seriously sick and tired of all this man...really....

Can you people STOP being such as busybody person who simply tak senang tengok org lain maju...????? GO AND GET A LIFE...

Wat other issue you wan to bring up..? Wat im doing is for good cost and not leading people to the negative side...kat luar tu banyak lagi orang yang patut dinasihatkan. Banyak lagi benda nak difikir mcm kenapa remaja tak puasa, tak solat etc...and not going after those yang buat kebaikkan..BODOHKAN!!!!

Well, let me say this, yes im very very dissappointed, sad, angry etc with whatever is happening now. Whether is it a personal life or wat...im just pissed off with everything.

Enough is enough, i have tolerate it for quite sometime. Im not afraid to be put behind bars..seriously. I will Fight till i Win the Game! Keep that in Mind.

You wana help, yes, i will.

But proof it, show me that you really need help.

Show me that you want to change. Not just complaining. Not just by running away from reality. Face it, Tackle it, Fight over it and Soar from there!

Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, im really very tired of all this same story, same defamation, same slandering and more. Aren't you all afraid of Allah s.w.t??

Im veryvery sad, angry, dissappointed etc....seriously......

2008-09-18T10:24:00.007+08:00

The program in Kuala Lumpur, Selangor Malaysia

13 Sept

9pm - Depart from Singapore to KL. Arrived at Citrus Hotel at 4am.

14 Sept - Went to PWTC (Putra World Trade Centre) for Malaysian Expo and Petronas Tower (Twin Tower)

15 Sept - Received called from Singapore to depart to Perak on 160909 on 7am - CANCEL

16 Sept

2pm - Went to Utusan Malaysia HQ (Local Newspaper Company - BH) to meet up with Ust Haslin Bahri & the Ulama from Perak.

4pm - Head back to Citrus Hotel to the Executive Lounge

5pm - Head to Shah Alam upon the invitation by one of the members of Muhammadiyah in Malaysia (Singaporean).

5.30pm - Went to the local bazaar at Shah Alam near to Shah Alam Stadium

6pm - Went back to the private resident at Jalan Jelutong.

7.15pm - Iftar & Maghrib there.

8.15pm - Head back to Kuala Lumpur City Central from Shah Alam.

9pm - Head off to Singapore

3am - Arrived in Singapore

It is so tiring man...however, im afraid that i have to leave for Brunei on Sat morning and back to Singapore on Sun morning..No pls...im tired.

2008-09-16T17:31:00.001+08:00

Salam people....im now in Kuala Lumpur. Have to go to Perak tonight. Not sure when will i return, most probably by Friday. To people out there, i miss you so much....especially mum, and those i love the most.....

2008-09-13T16:58:00.001+08:00

Hi ppl...this pict was taken ytd. It was my last day @ Aljunied..:(

Anw, im off to Kuala Lumpur for a business trip from tonight @ 9pm till Thurs afternoon...so yeah, if there is anything, pls email me. Thx..

2008-09-11T15:12:00.007+08:00

With my primary 4 class...

My Secondary 1 class...see how naughty is this Mustaqim...heheh

2008-09-09T15:41:00.001+08:00

First day at Madrasah Aljunied as a relief teacher was AWESOME!!!!!! I LOVE IT MAN....heheh. Cant wait for tmr for nxt lesson...weeeeeeee

2008-09-08T18:51:00.005+08:00

Weeee!!!! I was called for relief tmr till Fri as a Sci teacher for Primary 3 and English teacher for Sec 3 at Madrasah Aljunied...Yay!!! Im so excited. But, Science for Pri 3???? OMG....hehe

2008-09-08T10:43:00.003+08:00

Langit tak selalu cerah

Hi ppl...let get things out. To be honest to readers as well to thoe who knw what is my current position now, i felt that there is a conspiracy against me. it is a conspiracy. I sense it...

After a friend of mine being trap by the plot, i believed it will be mine turn next.

No matter what happen, i will fight till i win this game. Im prepared for whatever actions to be taken against me, but remember this " I WILL FIGHT DAY AND NIGHT TILL I WIN THI GAME & ALLAH WILL ALWAYS BE WITH THE MAN WHO STAND WITH HIM.."

There is a consipracy to topple and tournish my career....i sense it and i knw it will happen. Its the matter of time now...when & where?

2008-09-01T09:37:00.007+08:00

Selamat Berpuasa to All Muslimin & Muslimat

May Allahswt forgive all our sins directly or indirectly, InsyaAllah.

Alhamdulillah, Kasih Ramadhan project when smoothly. It was awesome and THANKYOU to those who have put in the effort in making this project a success. Thankyou to those who have donated generously..Im very happy with the outcome of the entire thing.

I keep thinking about what had happened recently..it was so fast but yeah, it His will. What we can do now is to pray and hope for the best for our life. I may not be there with you, but my prayers are for you and the rest...InsyaAllah

2008-08-28T15:20:00.007+08:00

2nd post for the day. Ytd i had quite a good day. I when to Madrasah Aljunied Al-Islamiah in the morning. I met up with their Naib Mudir (VP), Ust Mohsan as well as an old friend Ust Zakir.

We meet up for a while just to have a chit chat on how we can work together in the future, InsyaAllah. It was awesome when i had my "recess" at the canteen accompanied by Ust Zakir and few others. Had a good time there.

To Nurture Islamic Scholars who will function as the Successor to the Prophets

Ust Mohsan

Ohya, i met us with a new friend from Indonesia, Pak Iwan. We met during the EXPO (MegaExpress). We share our ideas for both Singapore and Indonesia. hahah. A nice man indeed. He have invited me over to his residence to have dinner with his family etc. But yeah...bila agaknya ada masa eh..hehe

Pak Iwan

Oh dear, i might be going to KL during Ramadhan...haizzz. It will be like a 2D1N kind of thingy for meeting...arghh... confirm penat babe...

Firman Allah swt dalam Surah Hud, ayat ke-88 yang bermaksud:
"…Aku hanya bertujuan hendak memperbaiki sedaya upayaku; dan tiadalah aku akan beroleh taufiq untuk menjayakannya melainkan dengan pertolongan Allah. Kepada Allah jualah aku berserah diri dan kepadaNyalah aku kembali."

Yeah...gtg. Really not in the mood today. So sori..

2008-08-28T11:09:00.004+08:00

Hey ppl...its cold outside. It have been a rainy day for the past few days. Just like the tears inside. :)

Akar nibung meresap,

Akar mati dalam perahu.

Terbakar kampung kelihatan asap,

Terbakar hati siapa yang tahu.

Anak Melaka jerat lebah,

Jerat dipasang ditengah kebun.

Setia saya tak pernah berubah,

Hanya orang menabur racun.

Bila hati sudah dibakar,

Bagai membakar kayu jati.

Dengan helah pencak pendekar,

Takkan tergugat pahlawan sejati.

To me, it wasnt a mistake. But, its a time for us to move to the next step. Leaving all the past behind as a history. Leaving it as a learning point for us to be strong again.

It take courage for everything, even confident.

If you believe you can, you will. Don't worry abt me, im fine...perfecly alright. Afterall, its HIM who decide everything.

Manusia yang merancang, namun Allah yang menetukan segala-galanya...

Never take things for granted.

If you have something new on your right hand, don't and never to let go of the left one. Afterall, it will be your greatest strength with the combination of the two force

Dont wana elaborate more..We have eyes to see, we have ears to listen and have brains to think wisely and not emotionally....

2008-08-22T16:29:00.002+08:00

Be Mine? hehehe

20/08/2008 marked a new beginning for him & her...

M. Zuhaili

2008-08-20T22:49:00.001+08:00

An Arabic calligraphic which i received from a friend from Brunei Darussalam

Written: Muhammad Zuhaili

2008-08-19T17:44:00.002+08:00

20/08/2008 will be tomorrow.

It will marked a new dawn of a new transformation, a new beginning of a new chapter.

A new era for a new people...

It have been almost 2yr plus when I ask a person the question. And tomorrow, a new history will take pace. Almost the same date of the 20th. Does 20th a lucky number for me..? What have 20th got to do with his life in this...?

Will see together the new era of a new beginning....InsyaAllah.

2008-08-15T17:07:00.003+08:00

Hi ppl....i received an email from a friend of mine from Africa.

Avril & her mum...

Hi Muhammad,

I wonder whether you will remember me as I'm emailing you for the first time after getting back to Sri Lanka. I got your e-mail address and contact no. and said I would keep in touch but something or other came up and I just didn't get down to doing so. I'm the girl who was with my mum at the Changi Airport trying to get my mums wheel chair organized and you helped us immensely. This was on the 10th of January this year. We were waiting for the SQ counter to open from around 4.30am at the airport. I even left my mum with you so that I could attend to it. Can you remember me now? I hope so. Thank you so much for helping us. Specially my mum. Really sorry that It took me so long. My sincere apologies.

Well coming back to our country I was really busy trying to find a job first, as I was out of job fro one year and doing some travel business which was really down by the time we got back due to the economic situation here. Finally I managed to get a good job in April. I am now working for the biggest departmental store in Sri Lanka which is ODEL (Pvt) Ltd., as their PR Coordinator. My job keeps me on my feet and is very interesting too. In fact we are opening our Accessories, shoe, make-up etc. shop in Singapore soon. It will be called "BACKSTAGE" We have already got a three story building for this purpose in your country. So hopefully I will be visiting your country in the near future. My mum is doing well and life goes on even with all the unrest in the country.

So how have you been? Are you still studying and working part time at the Airport? Two of my IT Managers were in Singapore for training a month back. We work with a company there. I told them if they had the time to get in touch with you but they were really busy with their sessions and had just one day for sight seeing and shopping before they got back. How is your family? Give me all the news about yourself and your country when you reply me.

I also need some information from you? An aunt of mine will be in transit at the Changi Airport on the 10th of August which is next Sunday. She will be on her way to Australia. Since she will be in transit in Singapore from 0759 am until 1945pm where she will take her next flight on Qantas to Aussie. Can she get out of the airport just to do some sight seeing. What is the closest place where she could go and get back in time to catch her next flight? Can she take the bus? Could you help me by giving me some information please. Would you like to have something special from Sri Lanka? I will send you a token gift from our shop ODEL where I work. Well will stop now till I hear from you.

By the way is your mobile no. the same that you gave me. Which is (65) 94243462

Attaching a photo so hopefully you will remember my mum and me. Taken at the Hotel Changi Village in Singapore while we were in transit.

Kind regards,

Ms. Avril

___________________________________________________________________

Well, Alhamdulillah. Im happy that a person that i help would eventually be a friend of mine one day. And yeah, i still keep in good contact with Avril (From Africa) as well as Gary (From Australia). Overall, everybody is our friend...except those who really wanted to be the enemy..yeah...

2008-08-05T13:04:00.006+08:00

Hey ppl...well, lately everything is just kind of...dunno wat to say. Basically, "mixed feeling"...yeah. I dunno is it good or bad but i seriuosly dunno wat is next for me.

Firstly, im really tired of the "Malay Politics" every here and then...When will ppl learn to grow up and support one anther rather then discriminating others due to jealousy, revenge and more..

I knw what is going on whether it is in my present or not. Everyone wants a name, everyone wants a post, everyone wants to have the popularity without caring abt others. Some even willing to do anything as long they survive. Damn to all this ppl...Why should you stop me? Why should you take action against me? Prove it to me. Show me the evidence if im a bad person, if i take public fund for my wealth etc...SHOW ME!!! Well i have enough documentary evidence such as files, document and even friends who are willing to help to give statement and declaration..To all this ppl, better get a life and stop discriminating others. If this stupid and unbaseless thing continue to happen, masa depan orang Melayu/Islam disini akan lebih teruk lagi.

Secondly, some ppl are too native that they engross to much on supernatural stuff. Bukan saya tak percaya, overall this is all belong to Allah. We have to proceed with our daily life. Jgn pulak kasi alasan yang "Hungry Ghost festival" dah dtg, santau pun dtg..haizz...Sori, but yeah. If we solat, if we zikir, if we have faith in Allah, we should not have all this in mind. Yes it is true that all this supernatural thing exist, but, are we suppose to be afraid of it or Allah??? Jgn cakap yang anda ini beriman kalau tidak beriman dgn qadha & qadar Allah swt..

إِنَّمَآ أَمۡرُهُ ۥۤ إِذَآ أَرَادَ شَيۡـًٔا أَن يَقُولَ لَهُ ۥ كُن فَيَكُونُ

But His command, when He intendeth a thing, is only that he saith unto it: Be! and it is. [Surah Yassin: 81]

If Allah command Be it, so, it will be....

Forget abt the pass...move on with the present life. Try to clean up your heart with zikirullah. It is nothing but Penawar Bagi Hati...trust me...

2008-08-01T16:23:00.003+08:00

Combination of Muhammad Zuhaili

2008-07-31T11:16:00.004+08:00

Hi ppl...last week was really a hard time for me...kind of..

Especially when it is abt me. I was called by _____ to make a statement on my upcoming project with PERGAS. Then, they were trying to take my idea by saying that it is organised by ____ with the support of MZ Services..Wth!!! Upon my disagreement, i was then being label as taking the personal profit and benefit on my own..

Like i said, " Kalau awak ada bukti yang menunjukkan saya ambil keuntungan diri sendiri, saya rela diambil tindakan. Kalau tidak ada bukti, saya boleh sama awak dimahkamah diatas tuduhan menfitnah dan palsu..."

When mention abt my name, it will be a hot issue. Need investigation, need statement as afraid that i take the personal benefit, personal benefit KEPALA BAPAK KAU!!! I believed, there is somebody behind all this who is trying to stop me from my career as they felt treaten with my present...i knw and sense that. Seriously lah ppl...im veri tried of all this crap, of all this fitnah etc...im tired. Can you ppl out there be more supporting then discriminating???? Can you??

oh gosh....i really feel like giving up....y? y? y???????

2008-07-25T10:07:00.007+08:00

Hey ppl...Alhamdulillah, Mum is now back from the hospital. Yeah, she was found fainted at the carpark. Luckily there was someone who found her and contacted the ambulance. May God bless you sir/madam..Here are some of the pictures taken @ TTSH

Receiving calls from family members and friends..yeah2, my phone keep on ringing too..heheSome of the gift given by family members and friends..

Having lunch with Omah..hehe

Sempat make-up...she was so eager to go home..:)The people that I Love most in this whole world: Daddy & Mummy

Well, i may be busy etc, but i knw everything out there....To realisticmaster, Time have come. If you have the evidence that im a homosexual, im a idiot or watsoever, SHOW ME. If NOT, SHUT UP AND LEARN TO BE A REAL MAN!!! Mark my word...

2008-07-15T17:19:00.007+08:00

Hi ppl...im feeling soooooo gooooooooood today..hehehe. Wana knw why? Ok, let me tell you..

There was a problem with one of my boys lah actually [Pazfar], he got a prob with his family etc and Alhamdulillah, everything is back in order now. BUT, he refused to go to school!!! Therefore, as i promised i WILL fetch him from home and send him to sch. and YES, I DID it...

I woke up as early as 5am [last Friday], wait for Subuh and then off to fetch him. He was still asleep. Waking him up is really, arghh. So i use other alternative, that is Water. haha. His mum herself allow me to do so..We reach school ard 7am. It was just a real flashback when i step in to a place with full of pleasant and dark memories..Deyi Secondary is the place.

Alhamdulillah, i managed to meet up with friends. Meeting teachers who ever taught me. The word of "Hey, Welcome back..", "How are you?", "What have you been doing..?"....it make me feel like a celebrity in Deyi for once again..hehehe. Well, i have no intention to come back, im serious. But, due to the prob that i need to settle, i have too.

I met up with Mdm Normila who was lyke..u knw wat lah eh..yeah. Eventually, she ended up by saying "Thankyou". :D So, we settle abt him for a while b4 i head off. Ohya, i managed to meet some of Pazfar teachers b4 leaving to check on their progress etc, n YES, they did me PROUD...Well done boys!! Sat kelas was as usual for both places, Alhamdulillah. :)

It doesnt stop there, i have to met up wif the principal on Mon with his mum. We also met up wif the Councellor and teachers..we appeal to ensure he got the free food, free textbk, free medical check-up and more. And finally, Alhamdulillah, he is pleased and happy to be back to sch. Mrs Chua [Principal] was shocked to see me when i entered her office to bring him in. We did discuss a few things and catching up with stuff abt Deyi with her. It was a pleasant moment to be in her office and we talk abt the progress of Deyi and more. Being treated like a VIP while i was once her own student..hehe. She also asked a few ideas on how to reform some of the system as the key person [Mr Johari] have leave the service. Alhamdulillah.

"Engkau mahu jemput Umi ke syurga, tetapi engkau telah membawa aku ke neraka dunia.."

I really learn a lot from this statement..As a child, we must welcome our mum to the heaven both in the present life as well as the life hereafter..We MUST & WE SHOULD!!! N yeah, Jazakallahu Khairan..Its ok, im doing this is not to be recognised or even to get the "Ultimate Former Deyians Award 2008" hah, but im doing this for his future and his own good. If there is no one willing to help you, no one willing to be there for you, i WILL hold/take the responsibility.. - for Pazfar

Some friends contacted me and asked whether am I coming for the Prize -Giving ceremony or not. Well, let just say that, "my time is over....let us move and allow others to have the opportunity.." Congrats to my sis, Nurul Farihin and others who received the award ytd. Amazingly, Mrs Chua contacted me and said, "Will arrange with Mr Lim to allow you to have the Deyi stage once again during assembly.." haha.

2008-07-08T10:56:00.002+08:00

Hey...kind of hving a mixed feeling for now so yeah..

1stly, kind of stresssss wif sm idiots ard who always love to act smart..damn it. sori but yeah..wat the hell do you think you r??? Always try to show of that u r gd etc...forget it man

Ytd went hm at ard 11.30pm due to the Muslim Chef Association meeting @ Masjid AlAmin [Telok Blangah man..]..it really test my kesabaran siah...especially a person who always want to challenge my capability as a Secretary-General of MCAS. Damn you!! Mentang-mentang tahu cakap Arab, nak belagak kape! Hey, ppl learn Arabic to gain the knowledge, NOT TO SHOW OF THAT YOU CAN SPEAK THAT LANGUAGE!! wth lah

Im just toooooo tired of life at times. There r sm ppl who still dun understand the word of "NO" for relationship. really frustrated man....man, i really dunno wat else to do lah in life....:'''(

Ya Allah, Help me plssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

2008-06-27T12:15:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah...With the effect of 26 Jun 2008, Im now holding the portfolio as the Secretary-General of Muslim Chef Association Singapore [MCAS]. It is actually a very heavy position for me. But, the President of the Association, Chef Hemran have urge me to take up the position. We talk in private through the phone and we discuss a few issue before i decide to take up the post.

Well, after thinking and discuss with a few of my close friends, I finally agree to take up the post.

"Rabbi Yassir Wa la Tu'assir"

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Permudahkanlah dan jangan menyukarkan"

2008-06-26T15:42:00.002+08:00

Email from a friend...

"Zuhaili agree to be the secretary‏
From: PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL
You may not know this sender.Mark as safeMark as unsafe
Sent: Thursday, June 26, 2008 3:38:44 PM
To: PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL

Dear Hemran, I believe I had found a suitable candidate to take up the secretarial postfor MCAS. Zuhaili is a young and honest as well as a responsible guy. He had acceptyour offer with a open heart. I would like to request for you to create an email for him using the name zuhaili@muslimchefs.org. Hope to hear a reply from you soon and rest assure he will be there alwayswhen we have our forthnightly general meeting. Wasalam, Siti "

Well, YES..i accept the offer to be the General Secretary of Singapore Muslim Chef Association..:)

2008-06-26T12:19:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl..take a look at this video. Its awesome..haha

Don't Judge Too Quickly!

2008-06-24T15:08:00.004+08:00

Hey ppl...i did this test just now abt myself. And here is the result of it..is it true abt me..?heheh

You Are An ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller

You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.

You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.

Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.

Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.

In love, you are loyal and honest. If you commit yourself to someone, then you're fully committed.

For you, love is something that happens naturally. And you don't need romantic gestures to feel loved.

At work, you remember details well and are happy to take on any responsibility.

You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

How you see yourself: Decisive, stable, and dependable

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, conservative, and egotistical

What's Your Personality Type?

2008-06-23T10:34:00.009+08:00

Hi ppl...well, last Saturday i met up with my adopted sis - NURUL FARIHIN BINTE AHMAD:p. We went to Han's River [Simei] for lunch as i plan to try something new lah eh..that is Table BBQ..yumyum We met up at Kembangan MRT Station as i was from the office. Ok..lets see...

Hmm...jus wondering how she score for her F & N in Sec 2...hmmmm. hehe

Nya...she bought me a cake from Starbucks...its simple yummy..wana knw what telah happen? Click here and read up urself..hehe

I was damn shocked when she gave me another present which is....

A belt from Lloyd Attree & Smith - London

Mahal lah oi....You knw wat she said, "This is the most expensive gift i ever bought for someone using my own money..." - ouuuhhhh, so touch lah kan...

Then from there, we head to East Coast as the boys are having a picnic there. It was fun when my sis finally meet them in person instead of just hearing from me. N guess wat? They kept asking here " Kak, bila nak jadi pegawai...?" hahahah. You see, it was from them and not ME...hehe. Well, there are some beautiful picts taken together but it is wif Ibrahim..hope to get from him soon.

Like i said before, i dun need anything. I just wana say THANKYOU SO MUCH FARIHIN for watever you have done in my life. I knw and i understand wat a sister been yearning from a brother. That is his brother's happiness. Well, its the same for me sis, its ur happiness that i seek for. N tads y, its better if ur future... is from MZ.heheheh, kiddin. But yeah...a year have past. But it is still fresh sis..what can i said rite? Its all fated to be that way. N remember wat i told you yeah..abt it. Yeah, im leading to a happy life. I have everything, i have my beloved parents, i have my boys, i have evrything...except that small part which is empty in the darkness. Even it is a small one, but yet it is very influencial. Dun worry, i dunt keep grudges towards anyone. i have forgive everything..but, its hard to forget, honestly. Well, lets watch and see...and yeah, to the waiting list that you know wat sis, it is a NO!! Im sure you knw wat is my taste will be like rite.....?

2008-06-22T20:21:00.002+08:00

Alhamduillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhmadulillah..

Been receivinggood and pleansant news for the past few days..1stly, my application for as Umrah pegawai [part-time] for Shahidah Travel have been approved. Yay!! And today after Maghrib, i received a called from Chef Hemran[President of the Muslim Chef Association]. He have invited meto be partof the association and offered me a post in the associatiion...Ya Allah...Well, i need time to thik at it rite? so yeah...

Anw, will post tmr abt ytd outing with NURUL FARIHIN BINTE AHMAD as well as PEMUDA AZFAR..Ohya, my dearest sis Siti Raudah is in the hospital now..yeah...Get well soon dear..ok, gtg. byebye.

2008-06-19T10:51:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl....take a look at all those pict...

Thankyou=)

2008-06-13T23:25:00.005+08:00

Thankyou for all your wishes ppl....Ok, let me tell you a story lah yeah since its almost time for bed for you but NOT for me..heheh

Alhamdulillah, it was my bdae ytd n i had a lot of fun in Pergas wif all the beautiful ppl there. the bdae gift was great lah...i got a Nike shoe from someone..heheh *thx....* Mum bought for me a Tiramisu Cake which was eaten by the boys [PAZFAR]. Here are some of the bdaewishes from family members as well as friends:

Mum - Dear son, Happy Birthday to You. Im proud of you as a son. You are my soul, my laughter, my tear and lastly..you are my overall Pride..Love, Mum;) - sweet kan..?hehe

Dad - HappyBirthday to you son. I pray for your success, dunia & akhirat and may allyour dreams come true. Well done in MZ... - ouuhhh dear...;)

Nurul Farihin - OMG YOU'RE OF LEGAL AGE! How so unfair sey! Haha okay laaa. HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY MUHDZUHAILI! Get your freaking license soon man! I want a ride to school. HAHA. May Allah bless you in whatever you do and always look forwardnto the future bravely, come what may. Promise me that! :D - InsyaAllah dear, thankyou sooo much. I will and infact, i DID it!!

Indra (Cousin) - Kami sekeluarga ingin mengucapkan selamat ulang tahun yg ke 18 (= semoga MZ selalu diberkati tuhan, InsyaAllah - Ameen

and more......sori, banyak sangat.hehehe. Overall, THANKYOU PPL..LOVE YOU MANYMANY

OHYA!!! Guess what i got today????

OH MY GOD!!!! I got it for FREE from a friend lah...Alhamdulillah...* im serious*. therefore, Farihin, I HAVE 2 NOTEBOOK NOW!!!! YAY! hahah

Well, im not greedy. Will use this piece for the company while another is for personal usage. afterall, we r planning to get 1 for admin work rite Ibrahim? :)

YA ALLAH!!! Tnr is Sat...gosh...im freaking for Sun man...scya ppl. You are invited. Wana knw wat..Click here. Alrite then, time for bed. Tmr will be bzzzzzzzz till nite as i have class at Hougang aft Isyak.

Honestly, i hv NO feelings for you. So please stop trying as the harder you go, the more dissapointment you will face. Gosh..3 are aft me now..sori, NOT INTERESTED!!!

2008-06-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

In a few minutes time, the clock will strike 12am. And im gg to be ___yrs old. Alhamdulillah

Times flies so fast, a year have gone. Last year I celebrate it all alone, but not this time. I wenthoe with full of surprise from my boys [PEMUDA AZFAR]. Of all the sudden, they want to held the meeting today and not Friday [for our event]...eventually, some "clever" ppl have leak out the date for my bdae. N thus, we celebrate it together today.

I was damn, damn touch with what they have done, honestly.

Thankyou so much for being the lights of my life...You have given me strength to move on as well as to serve you better. No cash or anything can repay you except my prayers for you...Thankyou so much....

Hahah...Farihin is the 1st to wish me...Thankyou sis. [mcm tak percaya gitu..hahah]

Ohya 1stly, Thx to my beloved parents to never failed to support me, guide me and many-many more. Thx to fellow family members, PEMUDA AZFAR for your undivided support and contribution, Nurul Farihin, my adopted sis who never fail to motivate me to greater level....and to all fellow friends and those near to my heart...Thankyou for making my life a pleasant one......

Muhammad Zuhaili

2008-06-10T17:38:00.002+08:00

What You want for your birthday Zuhaili..?

A question by a friend..hmm..what i want for my birthday....lets see

I myself dunno what i want...seriously...let it remain unanswer yeah...:)

2008-05-27T16:11:00.000+08:00

Take a look @ this video guys...you are invited..:)

2008-05-23T16:24:00.004+08:00

Well, went to watch the Indiana Jones...not bad lah actually. hmm..overall, its good

dunno wats wrong with me, lately been feeling down laike..urghhh. i just dunno why...:(

Ya Allah, aku tahu bahawa aku adalah insanMu yang banyak melakukan dosa dan tidak pernah bersyukur kepadaMu. Namun, aku menadahkan tanganku ini, memohon ampun daripadaMu. Engkau tidak pernah putus-putus memberikan aku rezeki, kesenangan serta pertolongan kepadaKu. Ya Allah, bantu lah aku Ya Allah...Ampunkan lah dosaku, dosa kedua ibu-bapaku..Ya Allah, aku bermohon kepadaMu agar Engkau beri perlindungan kepadaku, beri pertolongan kepadaku dan curahkanlah rahmatMu kepadaku YA ALLAH....

Ya Allah, aku redha diatas penentuan yang telah Engkau berikan kepadaKu. Berikan lah kekuatan kepadaku untuk menghadapi segala macam dugaan yang telah Engkau berikan kepadaku..Berikan lah aku kesabaran Ya Allah..Bantulah aku Ya Allah..Bantulah aku Ya Allah...

2008-05-13T11:07:00.013+08:00

Happy Belated Mother's Day Omah...
Outing with my sis, Nurul Farihin

Our kaki..hehe

Buruknyer Farihin...hehe

2008-05-08T10:11:00.004+08:00

WHY? WHY? WHY?

Ytd went to Bugis to get some stuff, n yeah..meet with Shida [ex-Deyian who graduated a year earlier b4 me]

I was hungry then, so i offer her a treat, n yeah..Mesti ah nak org belanje kan..hehe

We talk abt life after and during Deyi..Then again, this type of phrase pop-up of all a sudden;

"Well, you are successful now, having a business of your own, having what you want...but why still single?"...

arghhhhhhhhhhhh.

i Hate it! i Hate it! Its not only you friend, many out there are saying the same thinjg, even my boys.....sorie but yeah, i just don't like it when relationship matters is being brought up again...i just spoilt the entire thing lah...

2008-05-02T09:44:00.013+08:00

Hey...had a great Labour day ytd, not so actually. Ohya, im crazy that i bought a Ray-Ban sunglasses which worth $100++..oh my God..here are some of the pict taken, possing with the new Ray-Ban. Also, when for family dinner at my favourite place PONDOK JAWA TIMUR RESTAURANT..heheh.

Ayam Penyet...Esn teler...gua suka bangat...

WTH, im hugging that lamp post...hehe [Cathay]
ok...gtg..byebye. ohya, to all PEMUDA, Best wishes from me for your mid-year exam...InsyaAllah, you CAN DO IT...

2008-04-29T09:57:00.014+08:00

Had Lunch with Omah, Aunty Asma & Mum at Pondok jawa Timur @ Plaza Sing...the food was great man...

My Sweet little Omah..heheh

Aunty Asmah & Mum

Ayam Kecap

Sup "Bontot"..not bad..

Es Teler...yum2, theres Avocado, Jackfruit, Mango..n Coconut..

Then in the afternoon...I dated my mum [hehe. lol] coz dad was busy the whole day working. We headed to Esplanade, Marina Square as mum wana get some stuff there..When you go for shopping rite, its not complete without any meal..so guess where my mum brought me??

....

Ok...here you go, the Boyies Look again..haizz..

2008-04-25T11:02:00.003+08:00

HaloHaloHalo...hehe

Anw, ytd was awesome. Hahah, had a great time laughing in class and more..thx to all for ur support for the donation drive..hehe:)

I was quite pissed off ytd afternoon due to the deferment for my NS. YOU KNOW WHAT??? THere is not such course in the NS Portal on Islamic Theology!! My goodness. i was damp pissed that i called them up and make an enquiry. It goes like this:

Me: Hi, i would to know that im a student in the Singapore islamic Scholars and Religious Teachers Association. [Islamic Institute of PERGAS]..however, there is no indication of the institute in the option list. So how?

Stranger [NS hotline]: Oh well sir, you have to type Biblical Theology for that.

Me: What? Biblical Theology? Im taking Islamic Theology and NOT Biblical Theology

Stranger [NS Hotline]: Sorry sir. But its just an indication that you are taking a course on Islamic law. Don't worry. Its just that we don't update the latest course etc in the portal. So sorry sir. You have to select it.We will monitor that.

Me: Better be. Or else, you are putting me in a big trouble. Alright then..thx

Stranger [NS Hotline]: So Sorry sir...Anw, you can ...blalalalala

Well, thats was ytd...Overall, its NONSENSE!!! Arghhhh.Haizzzzz..

2008-04-24T10:35:00.006+08:00

Hi people....some random photo taken @ The Magic Wok etc...take a look...heheh

N there you go...PEMUDA AZFAR...woww[not edited verson]

Ok then...cya soon..bye:)

2008-04-23T12:40:00.006+08:00

Wana see something.....

Well....this is our privilage card that will help us to get discount every here and then..sori, its for MZ Staff & Official only dear..:) :P

Anw, kind of bored now so i blog. Ohya, ytd had a great great time @ PERGAS especially during the presentation of Prophet Muhammad s.a.w..my presentation was really terrible man, mayb it have quite sometime taht i hv not present in a crowd..hehe. Syed & I were laughing like dunno wat due to a joke on "Zuhaili & The ChipMonks" due to certain reason yeah..hahah. damn, i was laughing like no one business [oh my...Ustazah was looking at me..shit!! hah]

Hey, tads me when i was young...[just suit "Zuhaili & The Chipmonks"hehe]

Well, life is kind of pleasant at times...just like the water in the sea..theres up and theres down..but overall, Alhamdulillah. Nya!! Guess wat, im meeting Mr Nur Johari this Friday man..Yayyyyy!!. Well, theres a lot we wana discuss, abt life, abt work, abt school [haiz...have to hear the problematic youngster in Deyi] and more...Kind of miss him as well as Deyi. Theres a lot of wonderful as well as unpleasant ones there...:) after all, its just a memory that leave behind..

Zu!!!! Wat is next in life man??? Wat is next?? Will there b someone there for you? Will you be able to face all the hurdles in life by urself? Till when will you be able to stand? All those came in my mind again and again...Only Allahswt knows when...

Life change tremendously since my last bdae...will it happen again this year...?

2008-04-06T10:52:00.015+08:00

Hey ppl...class ended late ytd...eventually it ended ard Asar, we pray together n follow by Majlis Zikir & Selawat...we had a great fun as ytd was Abdul Fareed's Birthday. We had cake n pizza as well. Well, whatever happen ytd really touches me alot..I juz dunno how to express my heart and sincerity in telling you a very Big Thank You ppl [PEMUDA AZFAR]. U r such a wonderful ppl that really touches my heart a lot...To Zairil, Ibrahim, Naz, Zaki, Adzhar, Fareed, Hanif and others, You are MY STRENGTH, You are MY HAPPINESS coz You are such a wonderful and basically undescribable brothers, staff and student i ever had...seriuos. May Allahswt show us His Guidance and Protection alwayz..InsyaAllah. Remember,

NO ONE CAN EVER SEPARATE US APART..:')

Ok, i remember tad last week [i cant remember when eventually], i went to out wif Nurul Farihin [my adopted sis] for a bdae treat..yeah, we had a great time talking abt stuff etc..here r some of the pictures:

Mcm budak kecik...hehehe:P

Nurul Farihin

Then i last last Saturday, i went for Asmah Laili book launch ceremony @ Swissotel Convention Hall..it was great to be able to meet various cheif like Chief Bob n more...N guess wat, i saw Raba'ah & her mum:) oh dear, i almost died in the middle of the ceremony [infact in the beginning] coz a ate this sandwich [at the table] which consist of RAW SALMON!!! Ahhhhh...damn...i just cant take raw food dmn you...*angry*

Berries Smile with a currant goatee...heehee

Then on last wed, Tues, i met wif Zai & Ibrahim 4 Jun discussion @ TM ard 9plus [i guess]..we had super loooong discussion on PEMUDA AZFAR & MZ [almost all the time] n ya, we did a stupid stuff of coz like testing our brand new walkie talkie in the toilet? Arh?! hahaha. it was fun lah dey...We end our discussion ard 12midnite? then we headed to Safra [Tanpines] for our healthy lifestye policy which is the pool and bowling alley.hehe

Reach home ard 2plus..heh. then the daily routine begins again..alrite then, tads all for today, needa get ready for jemputan with the Pemuda and then family dinner @ Magic Wok..yay! ok, byebye...:)

2008-03-24T11:28:00.007+08:00

Hi people...some random photo here..

Well, Hadis exam was really really ahhhhhhhhhh. But i tink i can score lah..hehe [Hopefully, InsyaAllah]. Ohwell, tmr is Tafsir & thurs will be Tauhid...ahhhhhhhhhh. But, insyaAllah boleh punye lah.

Im now basically rotting @ work...kind of too tired due to ytd event. But overall, Alhamdulillah. Thx to all PEMUDA AZFAR who did me real proud esp in the friendly match with PERTAPIS. Well, they did it again...its predictable that PEMUDA will be able to trash them. As usual, siape diorg punye manager kan..heheh. lols. Overall, Alhamdulillah..

Here is a simple message for all PEMUDA:

Passion for doing well can be seen clearly in your faces

Excitement that you have brought in my life

Meaningful moment together causing me to be more confident in leading you to higher achievement

Undescribable on how you have bring the light of happiness to my life

Determine to give your best have encourage me to give my best as a brother and a leader

Amazing people, amazing character and amazing idea have cause us to stand united a One

PEMUDA AZFAR,

May happiness and success be with you. Semoga diberkati Allahswt selalu & mendapat syafaat Rasulullahsaw, InsyaAllah. Ameen

2008-03-07T10:48:00.002+08:00

It have been a very very very loooooong n tiring weeks past and present...hv been up all nites, reaching home at least 12am, as early as 10 [to reach home]. Wow!! Life is really awesome. But yeah, enjoying life tho...

Been bz preparing for Staff Retreat @ Sentosa, Maulid and more...Maulid? Arghhhhh! Its a round the corner..Luckily got Ustaz Jamaluddin. meet him ytd to discuss a few things for the Tazkirah [more on reality show]. A very good and suitable topic for all, "Rasulullah s.a.w. adalah insan yang cemerlang dunia & akhirat" Well, do visit the site for more info..

PERGAS? Its always been great with meeting new ppl especially Ust Mateen & Ust Hidir [who took the trouble to send me all the time.heheh, Alhamdulillah] But....EXAM is coming out and i yet to study the Hadis, the Tafsir, the tauhid [my favourites]...Arghhhhhhhh! ok then, do pray for me...

Gtg, documents r waiting for me...Cya...bye

2008-02-08T15:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!! LOVE YOU SO MUCCHHH MAN...

EVENTHOUGH @ TIMES, YOU....HAHAH,YOU KNW WAT LAH EH..

YOU ARE STILL THE BEST MUM IN THIS WORLD WORLD!!!

Sexy my mum..heheh

Some random pict....sowie...hehehe

My cuzin can??haha

@ Sentosa.....an unknown little cubby boy...[mcm babi sikit, hahaha]A eventually, they are twins..

@ Swensen...hmm, cant remember when.hah

Cya again...hahaha [tads me @ work]

2007-12-31T11:32:00.000+08:00

From:
Johari Nur
Sent:
Monday, December 31, 2007 4:09:18 AM

Waalaikumsalam,Meremang bulu roma bila membaca tinta Ali - terharu and bersyukur sekali!Personally, you have taught me many many things in this school and haave made my teaching stint so pleasant. I also enjoyed the walk to mosque every friday with you. You are special in many ways and your friends are blessed to have your company. We do make mistakes but most importantly we move on and grow. Just like Leo club - almost dies=d and then resurrected and now changed to PAYM service learning club with collaboration with PA and Cheng San cc. We should still keep in contact and I do miss the makan time after friday prayers. well you know my number.

Well, this is the reply sent by a teacher; a friend as well as a father to me who have changes my life into a pleasant and unforgettable one. He is non other than Mr. Nur Johari Salleh. I wrote to him an email on the eve of 2008 [31 Dec 2007] to tell him my updates on my career as well as education. [im sure Nurul Farihin bte Ahmad knows abt wat…] Yeah…it was a long one of coz. I hope that this year it will be a remarkable one for me as well as to everyone…well, abt “O” levels result, kind of don’t look forward towards it as i alrdy hv wat in mind and awaits for me….so yeah. Have fun and hope that all your dreams come true in a good and pleasant ways….

Zu...

2007-12-18T10:05:00.000+08:00

Korban @ Al-Muttaqin..hehe [thats me!!]

To you.....

Im really sorry to say this but,

for the past few days..our memories came again.

It appear every morning and when its time for bed.

Theres nothing i could say,

except my heart and my tears who speak for me..

I know that it is silly of me,

but it happens all the sudden that strike on me..

Knowing it is hard to let go of you,

since the day we last date..

I could remember every single moment we were together,

with laughter, joy and tears..

Wanting to text and hear your voice,

making me afraid being known as a "blocking stone"..

There is no more place to lay my love, no more shoulder to shed my tears.
Every single words that you have expressed,

it could be still heard clearly in my heart..

Crying all by myself at nights,

thinking and wondering what had happen to us..

thinking and wondering, why all this happen to us..

You exist in my memory,

as well as my heart..

Yes, my life start with you..

who have given me the touch of love, life and hope..

for the past, present and forever...

Missing you always,

Zu..

2007-12-10T17:01:00.000+08:00

2007-12-06T09:54:00.000+08:00

Hi…

Last nite I received a call, a prank call I mean. It’s non other than antiUDx…haizz

Time check: 1038pm, 05-12-07
Me: Halo..
antiUDx: Haloooo Mat Bontot!!! ***************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************and on and on they[I could hear that it is a group of people] goes…Attacking me and my personal life, my family, people around me and more….
Without having a time to speak to all those cowards, they hanged up…

Let me tell you this antiUDx, yeah…you have a group of people. You have supporters…but, it will never last long. Trust me. If you really insist that im wrong or whatsoever, then, take action immediately against me lah? Why not? Since im really a BAD/DIRTY/HOPELESS etc…person in this little earth…..Come, take me to the police or wat!!!! Why not?

As I said before, my patience is very limited. Yes, im a very passion person but everyone have his/her own limits. You knw, I did think abt it..Why you hated me so much? What have I done to you and people around that you hate me this much? If I did a mistake, come to me…attack me. but pleaseeee dun attack my family, dun attack people around me, dun attack my personal life and what Allah have decide for me…

“Mencaci/Mencela orang Islam adalah fasiq dan memeranginya adalah kufur..”
[Al-Bukhari & Muslim]

Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul….
Life is not as sweet as before,
Getting sour as time past by…
No one and no place to shed my tears, except to Allah All Mighty

The pain and hurt is felt by the heart,
Confusion came in mind..
No shoulder to be the place to shed my tears,
Keep it deep to myself,
Taking it as a fate in my hands…

Hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu bagaimana penderitaan saya selama ini….Ya Allah, bantulah hambaMu ini..Tiada lagi daya kekuatan melainkan pertolonganMu Ya Allah……….

2007-11-28T11:15:00.000+08:00

Sabah...

Prom

There's more picts actually....lazy

2007-11-22T12:58:00.000+08:00

Hi people…wow! It seems that there is a big conflict here…

To antiUDx with “respect”,[how torespect with a low dignity-type of person when he/she dun know hw to respect others...]

1stly, I wana welcome you to my blog..its good that u find ur way here..ingatkan sesat. Anw, let me answer ALL your accusation against me k? since you want to know MORE abt me…Dun believe that basically you admire my style.

Regarding you email on: [Muhd Zuhaili: Ya atau Tidak]

1) Yes I have a good relationship with the former secretary of Mercy Relief as well as all the Past & Present President of the Lions International Club. So? What is your problem? We are close as friends as and not more than that. Yeah, they came to my resident to pay me a visit as well as they want to know what im doing now and so for..we discuss current issues about the Lions Club etc..I meant, im sure you did invite your friends to your place rite? Unless you are reallllly ANTI- Social. Hah sori

2) NEVER I beg any of them for money..what for, i alrdy had enough and I strongly believe that my parents have given me enough. And for your info, im a Young Man. No matter how difficult for me, I STILL CAN STAND ON MY OWN FEET!!! Learn this if you are a MAN of your words……:)

3) Well, whatever it is, its my personal life k..it me who decide who I want to be with. You have NO RIGHT to interfere in my personal life. It’s up to every individual’s rights to choose what they think it is right. For me, I will always pray for her happiness coz I knw that I hv brought tears in her life when she is with me… No matter what, JUST SHUT UP and mind your own business.

4) For your info, YES im doing very well now.. And let me tell you something, you can spread all the remorse and all the accusation against me to others…but people have eyes, ears and brains to think what is right and what is not. I can’t stop you from saying and forwarding email rite? Coz you wont have the guts to face me personally..

5) Lastly, this is Muhammad Zuhaili, the person that you HATE MOST in this world. Come and face me if you are a real man who speak the truths and believe that im wrong etc…if you can’t afford it, then it is best for you to repent [taubat] before its too late yeah..Ingat, “Fitnah itu lebih berdosa dari membunuh”

To my friends, anyone who know me, you are the judge for the entire process. Kalau you really want to carry on, then be it. Really sori to say this, but I really know and aware plus conscious that all this is a very dirty CONSPIRASY to Destroy me, Embarrass me and to undermined the confident of my friends and contact towards me. Let me tell you now that I DUN CARE whether you Like me, Hate me or whatsoever because I know what I DID, I KNOW what I DIDN’T DO AND I KNOW WHAT YOU DID!!!!!! IM NOT AFRAID EVEN IF YOU PUT ME IN THE JAIL!!!!BECAUSE I ONLY KNW 1 THINGS, THAT IS YOUR FOLLOWERS ARE DEVILS & SYAITAN THAT WILL BE PLACE IN THE HELL!!! TAKE MY WORDS….

SAYA MEMANG PANTANG DICABAR. KALAU SAYA LAWAN BUKAN SEMBARANG LAWAN. SEKALI LAWAN, TETAP LAWAN!!!!!!

& SAYA LAWAN SAMPAI MENANG!!!!!

Let’s ignore this person called antiUDx and treat this as Dugaan Allah swt towards me…

2007-11-08T09:56:00.000+08:00

Before you speak...Listen

Before you write...Think

Before you decide...Reflect

Before you spend...Earn

Before you criticize...Wait

Before you pray...Forgive

Before you quit...Try

Your words, your dreams & your thoughts have the power to create conditions in your life. What you speak about, you can bring about...

If you keep saying you can't find someone to Love you, or believe in you, our very thoughts will attract more experience to confirm your beliefs...

Turn your thoughts & conversations around to be more positive & power with

Faiths, Hope, Love & Action...

Don't be afraid to believe that you can havewhat you want & deserve...

Thankyou for giving me the strength and restore back my confidence..

Watch your "thoughts",

they become "Words"

Watch your "words",

they become "Actions"

Watch your "actions",

they become "Habits"

Watch your "habits",

they become "Character"

Watch you your "character",

For it, become your Destiny...

Anw ppl, i will be

2007-10-22T19:22:00.000+08:00

Away for "O"levels....Pray for me ppl.....thxxxxx. *Muuuuaaacks*

2007-10-11T17:31:00.000+08:00

2007-09-11T19:41:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah...

With RADM (NS) Lui Tuck Yew

Minister of State for Education