Well, IM BORED!!!!

It have been a while since i work and now its like..urghhhh. ok, forrget it.

Its like, this brain of mine keep on thinking, thinking and thinking like no one business causing me to have migraine...Ya Allah...

Ok, one of my boys came today. Just to have a check. Yelah, dulu bila dier keje, sibuk na...sampai takda masa nak get update pasal kita org...but now, even an hour is a quality time. :) we talk and discuss a lot, even a bt relationship. Well, i have share my to him...as an example.

what do you knw abt love? what do you knw abt life? Lets say it is complicated. Indeed, it is...seriously. But no matter what, you have to move on and go with the flow...:) rite boy?

He then told me this, "Asal you taknak buat buku ke novel on your love story..?" hahahaha. What is so special and interesting abt mine love story...it always end with the negative side of it. its not a fairytales that i use to hope for...but, its all in His hand...well, let me say this, maybe i will give it a try by just sharing it in this blog where it is all abt my mind, my life and my heart....

Its a a story of hope, love (maybe puppy-love, hehe), life and also friendship....yeah...will begin it soon...lets take it, and learn from it..we reflect on our life and love..are we fit to be love and to give our love....

It was a fresh day, almost the same day where morning appear after night. Thinking of what to be done today is my daily routine. Putting on the tie which use to be the pride of me as the student leader, infact, the first Malay male to be selected in the board of student council. I was proud, and ambitious of getting what i want. Even neglect that i was a youngman and in fact a teenagers who are supposed to lead a "wild" and a "happy-go-lucky" type of life. The main question towards me was "Realtionship and Girlfriend (Gf)".

Seeing my pal hanging, dating them make me fell awkward about myself. even feel stupid and lousy at time. Am I a nerd? Am i not handsome? How i wish i could be like him where almost every girls would want him. Question after question appear in me. Especially when a beautiful girl walk just walk acrossed you like the Next America's Top Model.

I did try to ask for a date from a classmate of mine who have the look like a Chinese girl when she is a Malay. But, it was just a betting type. Honestly, i don't prefer that. In me, love is not about challenging your rival, but its all about the sincerity in you. That's why, He prohibit me from getting close to her, so as her i think.

The school is now having a dilema with a new principal who was extremely ambitious, which make me hate her. While in the eyes of my classmates, i am one of her.

As a president of my CCA then, i was assigned to put up an exhibit in the school library to promote the CCA as well as the school of some Ministry of Education award kind of thing. I was anxious of making my CCA booom. Of cause, feeling proud and confident as the president exist in me. Which i learn later that rank and position does not bring happiness at all.

I was busy with stuff, putting up poster, distributing flyers, but there was an angel that came stood by the side, looking at me for the first time. Well, she is beautiful. But deep in me, i will never get her no matter what even if i try. As a president, i have to look upon my image, being ego at times, putting up the high chin of my, thinking that im the best of the best. But actually, im not. I lack of something. That is love.

I am the only child to my parents. Mum could not get pregnant after a surgery thet took place at her womb. "Why i don't have a sibling?" then to be the cause of the tears in my mum. I know it was painful for her, even dad. But as time goes by, i understand why. But no matter what, you will always be my parents till i close my eyes. I love you mum and dad.

Will continue it soon...