Muhammad Zuhailiمحمد ذوهايلي

Hey people, I tink tad 12 is really not a good number for me. You know why, 2dae is 120707 [17 years 1 MONTH for me], but it simply start up wif a very bad bad start-up.

I was veriveri LATE for todae in history as I nvr once late in Deyi lah..you knw, I hv to stand in front of 1200 students and teachers…:''''''( wat else, the humiliation tad I have to undergo really make my blood boils and my mood was just being flush away…Yeah2, its funny and surprising rite tad ULTIMATE DEYIAN is late for sch today..wat a news! Hmph..let me tell u guys, not everyone is perfect! Get it in your Head!!!....but luckily Mr. Goh allow all the late comers to join our class as they give us chance as new system will be apply tmr. So, better not repeat the same old mistake again. Was basically not late, but the BLOODY bus causes me to be late…overall, I admit my mistake.

Then, was hoping tad had a great time after a sad morning, but eventually its not.

Well, the other sad things is tad, I totally dun expect the ppl who claim to be my “friends”, “people who cared abt me” to eventually turn against me. You know, whatever u said to me in class or wat I know tad u care and concern abt me. But do u ever knw tad at times when u used ur words it just cut cross my heart..? do you ever knw the pain tad I have gone through..? you called this you cared abt me as a friends? You care nothing abt my feelings..I may have you as a friend in sch, but do you know tad in reality im veryvery lonely….? Do you knw tad you all present only in the sch and not when im at home..? I really dun expect you to blow me off during the last period of the day..causing my entire mood to be flush away within a second. I dun want to break our friendship, but if you insist of having a war between us, then I have no comments. Let me decide on my life. Let me decide who I want to love.[its not easy…really its not easy..] Let me decide who I want to be…you have no right even though you are a friend tad I knw for years…your rights is just to support and not humiliating me or even worst discriminate me as wat you have said earlier..Sori for being a bastard here but you are not helping, but you are hurting me even more… :''''''''(

Seriously, I felt tad I duno wat will happen to me. I dun have the strength anymore….perhaps I would just collapse 1 day and close my eyes forever and tad perhaps would give you peace [same for me mayb]. Honestly, at times I felt tad I have no body in tis world. No one is with me now….im all alone to continue to survive in this world which is full of misery…im sori..